I just want to give up

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I guess I dont have anywhere else to turn but here hoping I might get the right help But I feel like just throwing in the towel with life my marriage everything . Im in a marriage when my husband only see it as me with the problem I dont even feel that he thinks I am with fighting to keep this marriage working. Maybe he will miss me when I am gone I am tired of fighting and loving a person who clearly doesnt love me . Love is more than a word it is a ation. I just dont know anymore

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I almost skipped over this thread but something told me to go back and read it. I am so glad I did because I can relate so much to you and to what you are going through. I am going through the same exact thing and also feel like moving on. If I wasn't so Agoraphobic I would ask Gary for a divorce because I know thats what he is wanting. We don't act like a married couple but more like roommates. I have hurt so much emotionally the past year that it almost got the best of me the other night. I would give anything not to be Agoraphobic right now so I could just go on with my life and let him go on with his. We both deserve to be happy and the way we have been heading has not been the happiest of paths. He blames me also for his depression because he says I have been so negative (which I have) that its bringing him down now. We fight over him going all the time because I get so nervous when he isn't here however I am working on that right now. I don't want to be dependant on him any longer but on myself. I don't know what the answer is to repair our marriages but I do know that this time in my life has been one of the lonliest and most depressing times of my life. Please know you are not alone and that I do understand how painful and hurtful it is to have our spouses stop giving us affection and companionship. Hugs to you and know I am here for you.

God bless,
Susan