Usually I jut pray in my head and hope that he's really listening, but something told me to just put it out there OUT LOUD for once.
I asked the Lord to send me a mircale or anything, to save me from this horrible place I am in, I asked him to walk with me as I go through this, and to give me the strength and courage to make it.
As I layed in bed lastnight, my first night totally off my antidepressant, I felt very weird and like I couldn't breathe well. I was scared to death but I kept hanging on. My ears were ringing, I was hot an sweating, and I just felt so bad.
Something in my head spoke to me and all it said was this really loudly: "PSALM 41 31".
At that moment I could not even begin to get up and grab my Bible to look, So I repeated it several times in my head so that I could remember when I woke in the morning. Sure enough, thismorning I woke and felt just as bad as ever but one of the first things I thought of was what that voice had said.
I went into my closet and grabbed my old Bible I hadn't held in my hands in quite some years.. I opened it up and realized there was no PSALM 41:31. So, instead I read all the versus in 41. I was amazed at how it made me feel. Then, I figured, well maybe it just meant to read all the versus in 41 and 31. So I flipped to 31. And Let me tell you, I was amazed.
I'm not gonna type all of the versus but I am gonna type what hit me as I read over it...
In PSALM 31, it was pretty much all of it that really had me.
"In thee O Lord, do I put my trust; let me never be ashamed: deliver me in thy righteousness.
Bow down thine ear to me; deliver me speedily: be thou my strong rock; for an house of defence to save me.
For thou art my rock and my fortress; therefore for thy name's sake lead me and guide me.
Pull me out of the net that they have laid prively for me: for thou art my strength.
Into thine hand I commit my spirit: though hast redeemed me, O Lord God of truth."
Then it goes on to say....
"I will be glad and rejoice in thy mercy; for thou hast considered my trouble; thou hast known my soul in adversities;
And hast not shut me up into the hand of the enemy: thou hast set my feet in a large room.
Have mercy upon me, O Lord, for I am in trouble: mine eyes is consumed with grief, yea, my soul and my belly.
For my life is spent with grief, and my years with sighing: my strength faileth because of mine iniquity, and my bones are consumed."
It goes on to say more..
"I am a forgotten as a dead man out of mind: I am like a broken vessel."
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"But I trusted in thee, O Lord: I said, Thou art my God.
My times are in thy hand."
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this is where it really got to me.. please read on.
"For I said in my haste, I am cut off from before thine eyes: nevertheless thou heardest the voice of my supplications when I cried unto thee."
"Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord."
And then I read the top of the page on the right corner.. it says "I Trust In Thee, O Lord."
Just thought I would share with everyone.
Thanks if you read all of that, I know it was alot to read.
