Long time no see!

[Brandi Menifee]

Hi Stress center friends! I feel like it hass been so long since I have been on here! Things have been going pretty good as far as my anxiety, and I haven't had a whole lot of body symptoms in a few months! I am still happily planning my wedding to the love of my life, and still going to school.

Today though in psychology class I was a little bothered with the lecture today. We were discussing mental disorders, and anxiety was one of the first things discussed. You can really tell when people have never been through certain things bcuz they try to act like they know what their talking about, but you yourself have been through it and just sit back and watch others form their opinions about it, and most of what they say about it is false, or they have jokes about it! I did get a little offended bcuz NO ONE in that class knew how serious anxiety for people like us is, and they made little comments that I did not like. For example, they said wow being like that must really suck, and the teacher gave an example of a lady who was pumping her gas was fine one minute, then the other she was in a panic attack, and she didn't know what caused it. Then everyone started to wonder why she didn't know what caused it, and how can you just have a panic attack, and wow that must suck, with a laugh here and a laugh there!

I thought about standing up and explaining their why's to them, and that anxiety is not something that is pety, or can be controlled right away, especially if it's really severe! I wanted to explain my story, but I just brushed it off, and continued to listen to the lecture. However I just felt like I was being made fun of, even though no one even knows the battle I went through with anxiety at one time in my life.

Anyway, besides that little situation, everything has been pretty much good. I still battle with negative thoughts though, but not as bad. I still know I need to go over the program again, hopefully I will get to it before I walk down the aisle, so I can polish up on my CBT skils.

My wedding is sooo close it is June 12, 2010! I am sooo very happy and I can not wait!!! Talk to ya'll later! Hope everyone is doing well on here, and never give up, because IT DOES GET BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!

[Guest]

I would have felt the same way you did in that situation. I would have had the urge to stand up and give them a REAL lecture on anxiety but would have been too shy.

I'm really happy to hear that you're doing so well.