Hopeless feelings

xlostgirlx · Post by **xlostgirlx** » Tue Mar 30, 2010 3:56 pm

I'm posting on here because i feel kind of different after what happened today with a visit to the doctor.
It was hard to get into a car since i have have been in a wreck and got hurt before and am still not over it seeing flashbacks when i get into one. Alot of family members i was with i don't feel comfortable around because they talk about either wrecks or how i need to be sent off for my disabilty making comments like i am crazy. The whole time in the car i listened to Lucidna's relaxation tape and tried to escape but my anxiety kept getting worse from the car and my family.
So when i went into the doctors office just sitting there made me shake and right when i sat on the table i got this feeling of hopelessness like he isn't going to be able to help and i started to feel my body get really hot and my nerves feel like their being squeezed my blood pressure was high when they checked it and i had to just get out of the room fast and get outside.
I feel stupid for making a fool of myself in front of the doctor. I explained to him how antidepressants didn't work for me and how i get bad side effects and that i would rather be on an antianxiety medication since my anxiety is so bad and once again.. for the 2nd time the doctor didn't understand and just gave me cymbolta.
I was going to get xanax since it helped stopped my panic attacks in a flash but i guess all the doctors stop giving it out. I just needed something to stop it when i get out of the house or can't sleep while i can actually concentrate on this program.

I feel that feeling again the last time i visited a doctor. Its like this hopeless feeling like i can't be helped or no one will understand. I feel angry like i just want to go drink alcohol or smoke again just to get some kind of relief in my life aside from the pain and anxiety.

I am doing this program yes. I'm using the steps but i can only do so much and it does take time. I also know other people doing this program are on anxiety medicine so i dont understand why doctors have to do this to me. I'm tired of having to explain myself to everyone .. i feel really numb.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 30, 2010 4:35 pm

I didn't realize you had been in a car wreck--no wonder it is hard for you to ride in cars. I am sorry your doctors appointment did not turn out the way you wanted. You didn't make a fool of yourself in front of the doctor--you had anxiety and if he is any kind of doctor, he knows what that is. Tomorrow morning, call his nurse and leave a message for her to call you back. When she does, tell her you want some Xanax, that you have taken it before and it helped you. Ask her to explain why he gave you an antipressant when you requested Xanax. A lot of antidepressants will act on both depression and anxiety. Most doctors today will give you an antidepressant because they think they are less addicting. The jury seems to be still out on that theory.

My sister takes Cymbalta and she likes it and it may be OK for you too. The only way to know is to try it.

Unfortunately, some doctors do not take the time to explain what they are thinking, just give you a prescription. Especially since you are younger, they may act more patronizing.

Just hang in there and keep doing the program. You have nowhere to go but up!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 30, 2010 4:45 pm

Hey lostgirl,
I totally agree with Samcat!!! Hang in there little one, you are going to be just fine!!!

God promised to supply our needs and He cannot lie!!! So, if you need the Xanax, then just say, "God You promised to supply my needs according to your riches in Glory, and I am going to take you at Your word, since it is impossible for you to lie!!!"

Do NOT give up on yourself, my dear friend!!! You have come much too far to allow anything to stand in your way!!!

Your doctor needs to be a little more compassionate!!!

I love you soooo very much and I will be praying for you!!!

You are going to be just fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Many ((((((((((lostgirl))))))))) to you!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 30, 2010 6:53 pm

Originally posted by samcat:
I didn't realize you had been in a car wreck--no wonder it is hard for you to ride in cars. I am sorry your doctors appointment did not turn out the way you wanted. You didn't make a fool of yourself in front of the doctor--you had anxiety and if he is any kind of doctor, he knows what that is. Tomorrow morning, call his nurse and leave a message for her to call you back. When she does, tell her you want some Xanax, that you have taken it before and it helped you. Ask her to explain why he gave you an antipressant when you requested Xanax. A lot of antidepressants will act on both depression and anxiety. Most doctors today will give you an antidepressant because they think they are less addicting. The jury seems to be still out on that theory.

My sister takes Cymbalta and she likes it and it may be OK for you too. The only way to know is to try it.

Unfortunately, some doctors do not take the time to explain what they are thinking, just give you a prescription. Especially since you are younger, they may act more patronizing.

Just hang in there and keep doing the program. You have nowhere to go but up!

All the antidepressants i've tried give me bad side effects that i can't deal with. And the one i was on before caused weight gain or made me feel extremely tired.

I wanted to just be on anxiety medication and xanax was the only thing that helped me wtih my panic attacks that i couldnt' control.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 30, 2010 6:55 pm

Lost....I take this doctor is a general practice MD. General medicine doctors in NJ usually hand your case over to a speciality doctor such as psychiatrist or psychologist. I dont know what the protocol is where you live.
Usually general Mds will not dispense those meds for they deal primarily with physical diseases. I have had asked a doctor to give me an antianxiety med here but not without me going to see a psychiatrist first.I never did, because I feel they dont listen. And contrary to how you feel at the doctors office...dont ever think they think you are strange....they see many many people, most people feel very uncomfortable and nervous in the office...its a common thing!! YOu are not alone.
And yes, I have had car accidents where the people have hit me and I was injured. I had one when I was hit by a tractor trailor!! I have ha back pain ever since. I smoke only in the car...its the other drivers who stress me out.
But...I like to drive and heck if they are going to spoil it for me. I wont be terrorized by others. Keep listening to those tapes. Samcat and Ms. T. are correct!!! God will help you through this.!!! creamcheese

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 30, 2010 6:57 pm

Originally posted by Mrs T Bones:
Hey lostgirl,
I totally agree with Samcat!!! Hang in there little one, you are going to be just fine!!!

God promised to supply our needs and He cannot lie!!! So, if you need the Xanax, then just say, "God You promised to supply my needs according to your riches in Glory, and I am going to take you at Your word, since it is impossible for you to lie!!!"

Do NOT give up on yourself, my dear friend!!! You have come much too far to allow anything to stand in your way!!!

Your doctor needs to be a little more compassionate!!!

I love you soooo very much and I will be praying for you!!!

You are going to be just fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Many ((((((((((lostgirl))))))))) to you!!!

Thank you for praying for me Ms T bones. I'm not going to give up. I'm keeping on with the program its just its hard right now when i go outside people pushing me to do this and that all at once and i cant handle it all and i was going to take xanax when that happenes or when i have panic attacks waking up int eh middle of the night not being able to go back to sleep.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 30, 2010 9:37 pm

Originally posted by cream cheese:
Lost....I take this doctor is a general practice MD. General medicine doctors in NJ usually hand your case over to a speciality doctor such as psychiatrist or psychologist. I dont know what the protocol is where you live.
Usually general Mds will not dispense those meds for they deal primarily with physical diseases. I have had asked a doctor to give me an antianxiety med here but not without me going to see a psychiatrist first.I never did, because I feel they dont listen. And contrary to how you feel at the doctors office...dont ever think they think you are strange....they see many many people, most people feel very uncomfortable and nervous in the office...its a common thing!! YOu are not alone.
And yes, I have had car accidents where the people have hit me and I was injured. I had one when I was hit by a tractor trailor!! I have ha back pain ever since. I smoke only in the car...its the other drivers who stress me out.
But...I like to drive and heck if they are going to spoil it for me. I wont be terrorized by others. Keep listening to those tapes. Samcat and Ms. T. are correct!!! God will help you through this.!!! creamcheese

I'm sorry you had the same problem with your doctors. But i get what your talking about. I'm not sure what to take when i get in a really really bad panic attack though. Even when i know its not going to hurt me sometimes it takes an hour or more to get over and if im doing something i have to stop.

It felt like a burning feeling this time everything got hot and felt like unreality like i was going to pass out.