is ocd something your develope are born with
i am confused. i have had these unwanted thoughts following a bad anxiety attack for now 1yr. i don't feel any diff when they come other then they scare me. i don't get heart palpatations,clamy hands or feeling of faint that i notice. my question is can ocd start from one panic attack when you had something scary happen to you and you make it a habit to keep thinking about it because it was soooo scary that you keep it up. or is it here forever now and i just have to learn to deal with it. i have heard things from it will always be there to it will go away. i do have to say i believe it will go away because i can now see looking back it has gotten better i am not so afraid to be alone or at home with my kids (due to scary thoughts) i feel alot better but for some reason i still get that heavy feeling of worry from time to time. i just tell myself it is anxiety it will go away.
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Hey Kris,
This is a really good topic! I am suffering with the same as you..exactly. Mine started 5 months ago with the thoughts after a big shock with my eye which is now ok, it was not so much what was going on with the eye as what the whole episode did to me. Basically it threw me into this awful anxiety from the moment the optition told me I hada bleed on my retina I imagined the worst I have never had anxiety like that, then after a month or so when i knew my eye was going to be ok, my scary thoughts started same as yours and out of KNOWWHERE! That thew me into more panic and anxiety, it was like i had one thought and then all of a sudden i turned EVERYTHING into a scary thought I mean I had never thought in this way before, I was scared and bewildered and did tons of reasearch which helped so much, and looking back it has been a slow process I feel so much better now than I did looking back and like you I dont let it stop me doing anything but the thougths still scare me. Also did you find it hard to explain to your family and friends about your thoughts? I have also hated being home on my own or with the kids. I think a lot of it is a bad habit i really do, its like you cant unstick the thoughts can you especailly ones that have caused that much anxiety and the memory of the thoughts alone is enough to bring them back, for me just being at home is the memory of it! You cant erase them but I think in time new memories will take over, I do believe this is curable it just takes a lot of hard work..have you read any of Boons posts she is the best. Keep in touch with me!
This is a really good topic! I am suffering with the same as you..exactly. Mine started 5 months ago with the thoughts after a big shock with my eye which is now ok, it was not so much what was going on with the eye as what the whole episode did to me. Basically it threw me into this awful anxiety from the moment the optition told me I hada bleed on my retina I imagined the worst I have never had anxiety like that, then after a month or so when i knew my eye was going to be ok, my scary thoughts started same as yours and out of KNOWWHERE! That thew me into more panic and anxiety, it was like i had one thought and then all of a sudden i turned EVERYTHING into a scary thought I mean I had never thought in this way before, I was scared and bewildered and did tons of reasearch which helped so much, and looking back it has been a slow process I feel so much better now than I did looking back and like you I dont let it stop me doing anything but the thougths still scare me. Also did you find it hard to explain to your family and friends about your thoughts? I have also hated being home on my own or with the kids. I think a lot of it is a bad habit i really do, its like you cant unstick the thoughts can you especailly ones that have caused that much anxiety and the memory of the thoughts alone is enough to bring them back, for me just being at home is the memory of it! You cant erase them but I think in time new memories will take over, I do believe this is curable it just takes a lot of hard work..have you read any of Boons posts she is the best. Keep in touch with me!
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hey mrsworry i have found it is hard to explain to family. i was seeing a counselor and my husband went with me one day and that is when i really got scared to be alone because he ask if the kids were safe. that freaked me out. i would never do anything but those scary thoughts just were taking over and all i could do was sit and cry and pretty much feel sorry for my self. i wasn't depressed i don't think my thing was more less what is happening to me. my doc scared me to because he knew me before and i was totally fine then when i brought this to his attention he said i was maybe bipolar. i was sooooo upset then started worrying so much. i am not bipolar got that cleared up real quick with another visit to a new doc and my counselor that actually diagnoses people and she said i was far from that. i has sooo much anxiety it just didn't know what to do are which way to go. it was an experience i can tell you that. not fun at all and to top it off now a year later my husband is wanting another kiddo and i am scared that i will have those scary thoughts again with another. i want to try for a lil girl so bad i have 2 boys but i am determined that it is anxiety and i will not let it take what could be something so precious to me.
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Hi Kris,
This is so weird, I have 2 children 6 and almost 2 and we have always said that we wanted 3 children. Now I would be worried also after experiencing this anxiety like never before! I am really trying to get my head around how this just happens to people seemingly out of knowhere (i know its not out of knowhere its all anxiety)
This is so weird, I have 2 children 6 and almost 2 and we have always said that we wanted 3 children. Now I would be worried also after experiencing this anxiety like never before! I am really trying to get my head around how this just happens to people seemingly out of knowhere (i know its not out of knowhere its all anxiety)
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