Feeling like I'm having a relapse!

Brandi Menifee · Post by **Brandi Menifee** » Wed Jun 17, 2009 1:00 pm

Hi guys, I have been doing really well up til like a week ago. I started week 13 on Monday, but not all that into it. I mean I've listened to the cd a couple of times, but just don't feel like I'm taking it all in. Truthfully I feel like I've been slacking on the program since week 6. Anyway, I've been on week 13 since monday, and I haven't even started the program. It used to just take me 2-3 days to finish the homework, because I'd just try todo a little at a time for that particular session I was on. I've gone from reading the little cards that go with each week, to not at all. Some of the body symptoms have come back, like extreme tiredness, to the point where I feel like I'm just goin to fall over! It feels like a very debilitating tiredness, it comes and goes, but I don't like it. My chest stopped aching for about a month or so, now it aches again off and on. Right now I feel like crying I'm soo tired, I'm getting very irritated again! I want to go back to my doctor and have him run every kind of test there is, because I keep thinking I have cancer somewhere in my body, because I get soo tired! I haven't even had to go tothe doctor for any reason since march, and that's back when I was agoraphobic, and felt sick all the time, made numerous trips to the doctors, and ER several times! I don't want to get like that again. I feel like I'm in limbo! I just want to snap out of this once and for all! I know I'm goin to probably have to do the program again. I also keep feeling like I need an increase in my antideppressant, but I'm trying to wait til I see my psychiatrist again in August. Please help me, give me some advice, I feel like my mind is working against me again. Tired of feeling soo tired, it's scary!!!!!

Brandi Menifee · Post by **Brandi Menifee** » Wed Jun 17, 2009 1:02 pm

I meant to say I started on week 13 on mondya, and I haven't even started the homework, sorry!

Karmerri · Post by **Karmerri** » Wed Jun 17, 2009 11:12 pm

Brandi

I feel for you and a lot of us have been there and it's exhausting and scary-you are fine. But I have to say, Miss Kennedy's post is so supportive and uplifting. There's nothing more to say after reading hers...she's right, keep reading her post...I was feeling fine and reading her post uplifted me!!!

Goober25 · Post by **Goober25** » Thu Jun 18, 2009 2:12 am

Brandi,

I had some things to suggest because I, too, have slacked the past 2 months as I was having trouble with session 6, anger. However, Miss_Kennedy nailed everything right on the head and she even inspired me!! (Thank you Kennedy!!) Everything she has written in her post is true and I know that I will continue to read it when I feel down or that I am going to relapse. I have relapsed once and as scary, exhausting and painful as it was, I am still here today, typing to you. It took about a week for me to bounce back, but I eventually did.

You can and you will get through this tough time...look at you!!! you're already onto week 13!!! That is HUGE!!! You should be congradulating yourself - not beating yourself up!!! Turn that negativity into positivity!!! You can do this! And we are all heard to support you and cheer you on in the meantime

Unicorn1524 · Post by **Unicorn1524** » Thu Jun 18, 2009 7:18 pm

What a great post, Miss Kennedy. Thank you for sharing your advice.

Miss_Kennedy · Post by **Miss_Kennedy** » Sat Jun 20, 2009 10:43 pm

I've asked the moderators to please put back up my post. I think I may have cussed. If you can't find it, private message them and ask them to put it back up. i didn't realize how important it would be and i think people need to read it. thanks, jeny

Goober25 · Post by **Goober25** » Mon Jun 22, 2009 4:59 pm

How do you private message a moderator? Because your post was so inspiring and made me have one epiphany after another. We NEED that post back!!!

Miss_Kennedy · Post by **Miss_Kennedy** » Mon Jun 22, 2009 5:29 pm

i did and hopefully they'll put it back up. i'm not sure what happened!

we'll see.

jeny

DEEP THINKER · Post by **DEEP THINKER** » Tue Jun 23, 2009 3:34 am

I'm not sure if this is what you're experiencing but I know that whenever I get a rush of anxiety through my body that afterward I get so tired that I feel the same way...like I can't even stand up or keep my eyes open. When you have that much adrenaline going through your body, it takes everything away from you and your body just crashes. It sounds like that may be what you are experiencing. Sometimes it will happen when I'm at work and I can't even keep my eyes on my computer screen. I have started to appreciate that feeling of tiredness though, it kind of gives you a chance to recover from what you have just put your body through.

Sunshine2da · Post by **Sunshine2da** » Tue Jun 23, 2009 3:48 pm

Brandi - I have had problems with the same feelings of extreme tiredness that you describe. The tiredness is like a sick feeling, weak, no energy, had to lay down. It would hit me especially hard after stressful times and when the anxiety was highest. My youngest daughter has had asthma since she was a baby (she is now 20) and I have had years of anxiety and worry with that, ie: when your child struggles to breathe, it is scary. When she was sick, I would feel those adrenaline rushes from being nervous and worried. My doctor says that living like that causes continuous adrenaline rushes and that I now have Adrenal Fatigue ! It can be corrected but takes time. There is testing they can do, like cortisol tests. Ask your doctor about this. I am getting better, but its a slow process. I hope you can get help for this.