Starting over again

CAlfonso · Post by **CAlfonso** » Wed Sep 23, 2009 4:01 am

I am officially starting over the program from session 3 on. I stopped at around session 6 or 7 due to lack of motivation and laziness. It's funny how everything I gained in the first few weeks of following the program I lost and actually have gotten worse. Lucinda was right about progress, it's a 1:2 ration. One step forward and 2 steps back. Well I jumped and leaped all over the place the first few weeks and now since abandoning the program and I am worse off than before I even started. I really wanna kick this depression thing in the butt!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 23, 2009 11:26 am

You aren't alone. I just started the program for the 3rd time. I came on here first so didn't actually start till today and I did the intro plus lesson 1 on the video. It seemed I had to listen over and over to sink it in. It made sense. I remembered it from before but still all the nervousness or anxiety. I'm so sick of this too. I KNOW there's a better way of life. Well, if we keep on keeping on and don't give up we'll do OK. I know the encouragement and other advice on here helps. Just knowing others have been thru the same thing and are finally rid of it means so much. Go to Steven Farris' video. You can click on it when you get to the forum about lesson 8. He's such a great help. He did the program and has come a long way. We will too but it takes time and patience which is something I don't have much of. That also is what causes my anxiety. I wish you well.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 23, 2009 12:00 pm

Yea it really blows my mind how I could sabotage such a good thing. I usually do that with a lot of self help books that I've read in the past. I would be psyched out about it the first few weeks and then taper off immediately after that. It's been an issue with me for soo long. This program isn't the first time I've slacked off on. It frustrates me every time. My sub concious really likes to halt progress by using laziness as a validation. Laziness and procrastination....

Ok jus had to rant a little bit.

newrunner · Post by **newrunner** » Wed Sep 23, 2009 1:09 pm

Yeah I know what laziness and procrastination is. I think they're a big cause of our anxiety don't you? So why is it so hard to break that horrible habit plus the BIG worry habit. Advice anyone????

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Sep 25, 2009 1:50 pm

I can relate..I'm starting the program all over again too. I've lost count of how many times i've done this...it could be the 7th or the 15th.

First of all do you really feel any more motivated by saying you're lazy? I highly doubt it. There are so many reasons why we may stop or fall behind.

One of the main ones is the fear of success, that we might not be able to keep up the success and people will expect more out of us than we can give, why not avoid that pain all together?

Another is that we don't see the progress we are making and have decided that we're just "wasting" time

The 3rd one i want to mention is labels. We label ourselves as lazy, bad, worthless, hopeless... This can make us feel like no matter what we do we will always be lazy, bad, worthless and hopeless. We also make a connection between our label and whatever self-help thing we're doing. It makes us think about that label and this causes pain. It's human nature to avoid pain and pursue pleasure.

and by the way, after being apart of the forum community for the last 4/5 years, I've noticed that there are alot of people that stop midway and then fall back and start again.

Mike

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Sep 25, 2009 2:20 pm

Thank you for mentioning about Steven Farris's video. I wouldn't have even known it exsisted if you hadn't and It is a very very good video.

Mike

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Sep 26, 2009 1:43 pm

Good to see you again after a couple years and glad to know I'm not alone in doing the program over. Today I found my CD's. WEll like you said about doing it the 7th or 15th or maybe for the 100th time (that's what it may feel like) sooner or later we'll get it. If it goes good for a while and we wonder what happened, oh well, another growth spurt. Growth spurts are actually OK although at the time they sure hurt!!

I actually wanted to watch Steven's video again today and now I can't find the post. I need to get the hang of this again.

Barb

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Sep 27, 2009 2:48 am

I agree, it's not like we go back to square one no matter how many times we fall back or stop using the program. I'm actually using the relaxation cd 3X a day which is recommended for lesson 2 and this was a very very difficult thing for me but i've learned since then.

Mike