Very Hopeless

[Taylor42]

Hello again,

I don't know if anyone is on here anymore but I need some help and advice or just someone to talk to. I have been really struggling lately. My family and I have been looking for answers and anything that will help relieve my depression. I have had 22 different meds, 7 different psychiatrists, and 6 different therapists. I have tried so many things in the past 6 years. It has gotten so bad that my family and I reached out to a TMS treatment facility so now I am currently on my second week of treatment. I guess I won't feel any different until at least 3 weeks into it and I hope to God I get some relief. I have been so low lately I cry alllll the time and have panic attacks and have this dark terrified feeling all the time. The treatment is 7-8 weeks Monday through Friday and I guess it helps me to get up and out of the house. If this treatment doesn't work I don't know what else I am going to do. I am so afraid that this is the last resort. If anyone has any comments on TMS I would really appreciate it or just some helpful and hopeful advice.

On the other hand (more for ladies)...does any women get seriously depressed and suicidal on their period!!!! I swear I am going crazy when its that time of the month. Its really scary how I feel. I am in touch with an endocrinologist to see if I have an imbalance in my hormones. I really hope they find something because this cannot be normal!!!!! My eyes are so swollen from crying and I just want this feeling to go away. If anyone has any advice I would really really love to hear it.

I am just so tired and overwhelmed with everything I want to sleep forever or shut my brain off. I need some hope or someone to hear me and to know what I am going through. I hope I get some feedback.

Thank you for your time and I hope your day is better than mine.

[Bryce_in_TX]

Taylor, I'm sorry for how you are feeling.

It sounds as though you may have a type of illness that isn't typical panic/anxiety or major depression. I don't know. But having seen so many psychiatrists and tried so many different meds it doesn't sound like the average depression or average panic/anxiety.

Have you been hospitalized for your illness? I'm guessing you have.

Here to listen, if that's all I can offer.

[lockdo]

I feel like that because it seems like nothing I do is right!!