I cant relate to anyone

greenlight242 · Post by **greenlight242** » Sat Oct 31, 2009 8:54 pm

I'm at a halloween party right now and I've just given up on trying to talk to anyone. I just can't. I have no life and can't seem to find it. I am so disconnected from society but don't want to be. However, I'm just not interested in anything. Never really have been. I can't stand being around a lot of people and I don't understand them most of the time. I've been going through the program for quite sometime now and it doesn't seem to be helping. Every place I go I just don't seem to fit in. I'm about to give up. The feeling of emptiness and feeling like I don't fit in are too much for me to bear much longer. People just naturally can talk all night and all day. I can't understand it. Will someone please tell me why people do this?? I try to listen and get into the conversation, but I just can't follow it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 01, 2009 6:32 am

First of all, my heart goes out to you. You sound like you are giving up and are just plain ole "beat down" Like you can't take anymore.

That said, as I was reading, I developed a picture of you in my head standing at the party getting so discouraged. If I might say so, it sounds to me like you are negativley judging every single interaction you had. Who wouldn't get discouraged when every attempt they made was judged and labelled as a failure? I think you have just beaten yourselp up quite effectively. As long as you didn't walk up to people and call them a butthead or spit on them, then you did fine! Stop watching them so closely for signs of "approval" or acceptance. You are you, just like you are, and, like I said, short of smacking them in the face, the chances you did so poorly are pretty slim. You let the negative self talk paint your evening into a big lie.

Anxiety is nothing but a damn liar.

Where is your victory in this night? First of all you WENT! I am sure you didn't really want to but you did it anyway. Also, you TRIED. You could have stood in a corner just watching but you didn't. You got in there. And, you didn't leave. AND you came to this forum and shared something painful with a whole bunch of strangers.

Well, well, well... look who is looking pretty brave, after all?

HANG IN THERE, don't give up on the program. Recognize when your thoughts are lying to you. If they make you feel run over, they are lies.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 01, 2009 7:50 am

Hi Hot Rod!
What a nice reply to Greenlight.
I felt better for her/him just reading what you wrote.
I agreed with your thoughts on the situation.

Have a great day.
You too, Greenlight!
SR

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 01, 2009 7:52 am

Oh
Have a great day John Austin!!
SR

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 01, 2009 11:18 am

My goodness, I just read your profile. What an awesome person you must be!! Doesn't sound anything like the person above!!! Please go back and read your profile. I think that's the REAL John Austin!!! THINK POSITIVE NOT NEGATIVE.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 01, 2009 12:18 pm

hotrod and barbgavon,
hotrod your reply to greenlight was exceptional!It was the epitomy of what this site is for.Thank you for your genuine concern for all.barbgavon,your reply was also awesome(I was going to tell him the same thing you did)It is an honor to be among this group.char-lee

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Nov 02, 2009 8:29 am

Thanks so much, Barb and Char-lee! Your praise got me all puffed up and grinning like a goober! How often does that happen, right?? lol

I just hope that greenlight responds soon.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Nov 03, 2009 5:53 am

I have a lot of the same feelings it sounds like you have. It is hard to make it through some time. But some times just sharing it with others out here helps. I try to focus on just one positive thing for the day. Listen to the cd's daily, and the relaxation tapes. Days I am not sure I can make it either. But I talk to God and ask him for help to make it through the day or even just something small to make me smile. So far it is working, I am still here. Some days better than others. On bad days I go visit a friend in the nursing home and when I leave I am always very luck I am doing better than most of the people there. At least physically.

Hang in there God can help you through anything if you just watch for his signs.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Dec 02, 2009 4:13 pm

i can easily relate to everything you just said. The thing is i had a lot of friends and something hit me 4 years ago and now i don't have anyone or any interests. i just cant speak to anyone and i am loosing feeling and memory . i also have the strange, negative and bewildering voices ruining my perception and skills.i feel that i am an alien in some kind of world where i am doomed to severe depression/isolation and unrelenting anxiety. i don't understand why people my age (16) are so chatty and how they can manage to hold a conversation so comfortably, like i used to when i was smaller. i have been to so many therapists,psychiatrists,doctors,hospitals,etc. we must keep trying. if you want ill help you and tell you all i can. i won't give up but my weariness has really drained me.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Dec 04, 2009 10:20 am

greenlight...if it helps you i can relate to you pretty well...i have the same problem of socializing with people...have the same feeling of having no point whatsoever..have no friends that actually know me...people who i mange to talk to sometime...well it never ends up well most of the time

i don't know if it helps...but just giving up won't help..keep trying we all have nothing to loose but to keep trying