Need Encouragement

ReBorn1 · Post by **ReBorn1** » Sat Dec 12, 2009 4:18 am

Hello.. this is my first post so I'm a little nervous as I type this. I've been struggling with my depression for about a year now. It was initially brought on by the break up of a relationship which was very traumatic for me. During the breakup I was extremely emotional and sensitive and I couldn't figure out why. My friends kept telling me it would pass and that I would get over it. but then I started to lose my appetite and then all I wanted to do was sleep. I eventually started to lose interest in work and my career and started getting mental blocks with my creativity which started to bring on anxiety because I was afraid of losing my job.. I started to immerse myself in self help forums and books and while they provided me with a clearer understanding of what I was going through I still couldn't act on the information and that bothered me even more. I eventually went to see a doctor who then put me on meds..Vyvance was the final one that started to make any difference but it was so expensive that I had to stop them after a few months. I went to a therapist and after some sessions began to uncover the fact that I had deeper issues that went back to child hood and my relationship with my father and his demanding personality... The breakup served as a can opener to the deeper issues. No I feel a bit overwhelmed with having to go backwards and clear up all this mess. I'm 43 and part of my anxiety is that I want to get on with my life and career and cant help but wonder how long this is going to take. I'm about to begin session 1 and I do have a bit of skepticism about if this program will help me to regain my desire to do the things that I love and return me to a normal and fulfilling life . I do notice that this program seems to focus mostly on the anxiety portion but I feel mostly depressed... with some anxiety, so I was wondering if anyone can tell me their views and any encouraging words as I start out on this journey ...

--thanks

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Dec 12, 2009 5:24 am

You are right, the anxiety part has a big focus, but as you move through the CDs you'll find that there are ways of dealing with things that trigger depression. I believe you will be helped greatly through this program. All the best to you!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Dec 12, 2009 11:59 am

Hi ReBorn1,

Welcome! Trust me when I tell you, you have come to the right place! The program is wonderful, and as you will see while you go through the program, anxiety and depression usually go hand in hand. The treatment for either one is the same! It does take some work (and brutal honesty) on your part, but I know you have this in you - we all do. You know that the way you have been living hasn't worked for you, and now you're ready to try something else. You've made a good choice! You are STRONG to have chosen a different path. It is normal to be skeptical of this - God knows I was. I had tried so many paths - some helped minimally - but still I was left stuck in a rut. This program is the way out!! You are going to love it! Work it, and you will soon see what I mean! For now, just hang in there!

And I'm really sorry to hear about your breakup. Breakups are never fun. I went through a pretty painful divorce over the last several years. I know now that it was the right thing to do, but that is REALLY hard to see when we are coming from a place of weakness. Even though I knew (in my gut!) that my ex-wife was not the right one for me, there was still a certain comfort there, because it was familiar, and the "easy" path. Well, as we all learn, sometimes the RIGHT thing to do is the hardest thing to do. Follow your gut (some might call this your spirit), because it usually knows the healthy path (though we sometimes ignore it because we're afraid - I was for the longest time - not anymore

).

John

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Dec 15, 2009 1:49 pm

Thank You Crave and Shif . I appreciate the support. I want to move from this place of darkness doubt and despair so I can tap in to what I know is the true me. I'm now on day number 3 and I'm trying to keep my expectations balanced. You are definitely right about the work and brutal honesty that it will take. Even after just a few days I am coming face to face with some revelations about my past and I have to really focus to not get emotional about it...just accept and move forward..The breathing techniques are working along with distracting myself.

I see that it will be one of the greatest challenges that I will have to overcome in my life... and I'm ready to rise to the occasion but at the same time I realize that being able to have a support group of people that can relate and provide guidance is tremendous..I am totally grateful to all who post on this site it means a lot...