Hello everyone

[Lostone24]

Just wanted to fill everyone in on my history. I have always suffered from anxiety. I know that now. But the hits keep coming. I feel as though fate has cursed me. My mom has been battling cancer for two years. My dad passed way in march from cancer. He left $80,000 in credit card debt for my mom and I. I just found out my fiAnce and I may not be able to have kids. She also just had a miscarriage. She canceled our wedding two years ago and never rescheduled it....and the list could go on. I feel like job. Is their an end in site? I now life is not easy but my "luck" lately has been terrible. I don't know what to do but I do know I'm not going to give up. I just want to know when that light is going to peak thru at the end of this exceedingly dark tunnel. Oh well

[pjmorales]

Hi Lostone, wow sounds like you are going through quite a bit. I feel the same way, not that i have lost my dad or my mom isnt sick but im always sick, weather is my panic attacks, my pain from my kidney surgery, headaches or just a cold. And my husband and i always seem to be in some sort of financial trouble, plus im battling an addiction. I dont know why some people seem to have a very easy life, and others always have to suffer. But just try to remember the story of Job, there was a reason. We may not know it in this life, and probably will be so happy in the next we wont care. Just know you are not alone, there are lots of us here with you and praying for you. I hope things get better for you soon!!

[Lostone24]

Thanks pj that means a lot to me. It's great to hear that someone is praying for me. And that others feel the same way. Our luck will change hopefully sooner rather than later. I ll keep you in my prayers as well.

[Paisleegreen]

Hi Lostone--I'm sorry to hear about your Dad and also the financial hardship he has left you in. It is a hard thing you are going through. Also, sorry about your fiance'. She is probably depressed somewhat. Now it with your Mother battling cancer as well you do have your hands full. But you are not alone...things will get better. We're are here on earth to face trials, it is the whole purpose of our being is to experience the good with the bad so that we can know the difference. I can tell you that I've experienced most all of what you are going through and it isn't what I thought life would be like. I didn't have anxiety when I was little that I can call anxiety with Lucinda's descriptions. But I've been scared and anxious about things as most people are, so for me to experience my first panic attack last year. that really through me for a loop.

My I guess, anxiety presented itself through depression and different types, S.A.D. and then the kind of depression that I needed anti depressants. I'm off of them right now and working out the anxious feelings of anxiety. You will start feeling better as you work the program. Paislee

[Lostone24]

Thanks for the encouragement paisle

You are correct about my fiancee. She was married before and her x was abusive. So I suffer for that guys sins. I.E. Fear of commitment. I'm counting on things turning up. It's kinda like they can't get any worse. Iwas on antidepressants for a couple years they didn't work for me. This program seems like it really get to the root of what I need to take care of. Again thanks for your support paislee. I there is anything I can do for you u know where to find me.