please tell me you know what I mean
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I can relate. maybe not all day, but I have been wound tight for a few days.Depression is totally new to me and me and my therapist just assured me yesterday that I am not a depressed person- he told me I am a happy person and got a little hormonal. One day last week, the 2nd day of my mentrual cycle I felt an urge to cry. so my ocd/anxiety sent me straight to the computer searching signs and symptoms of depression. very few if any really applied to me but I am now so fixated on it. I am scared of all the things I read about it- sounds like no fun. so now I am completely freaked out I might be depressed. I am a happy social person but totally stuck in an ocd/anxiety episode and Im making myself miserable i think. so maybe some of you with experiences of depression could help. I would also like tosay I have never depressed,only diagnosed anxious with ocd.my therapist even said he doesnt want to see me again for 4 weeks because he I dont have major issues- shouldn't this be good ne
Yes, I've had that before, and I'm better now so please don't think that you are the only one or that you can't get better because you can:). I'm not saying that this applies to you, but one time a therapist told me that sometimes we choose our emotions to replace emotions that we have trouble expressing, don't want to express, etc. For example, she told me about a patient who only experienced a searing anxiety constantly as the only emotion she let herself feel. This was to distract her from other emotions such as anger and sadness. Again, not saying that that applies to you, but just to let you know that experiencing an emotion all day long as the main emotion happens to many people.
Also, in my times where I had the chronic feeling that I would have an anxiety attack, really and truly, if I paid more attention, I didn't feel that way all day long. I paid more attention to that feeling, and in the moments that I had a break, I didn't pay attention. So, try to pay attention, even to the one second that you don't feel that way to reassure yourself.
I mean, you are just on guard. Your adrenaline is in your system in a more milder form than a full blown attack and you are just on guard for the next attack. I really found that Claire Weeks' books helped me in that state the most. I know how you feel. I feel a little anxious today compared to how well I have been doing. I'm trying not to over react to it. I think that's good advice to you too. Just accept where you are, it doesn't mean anything major is wrong with you, it's just anxiety, and it will go away.
Take care,
luvpiggy
Also, in my times where I had the chronic feeling that I would have an anxiety attack, really and truly, if I paid more attention, I didn't feel that way all day long. I paid more attention to that feeling, and in the moments that I had a break, I didn't pay attention. So, try to pay attention, even to the one second that you don't feel that way to reassure yourself.
I mean, you are just on guard. Your adrenaline is in your system in a more milder form than a full blown attack and you are just on guard for the next attack. I really found that Claire Weeks' books helped me in that state the most. I know how you feel. I feel a little anxious today compared to how well I have been doing. I'm trying not to over react to it. I think that's good advice to you too. Just accept where you are, it doesn't mean anything major is wrong with you, it's just anxiety, and it will go away.
Take care,
luvpiggy
We have this sentry on guard 24/7 in the beginning - before we start to work on ourselves. Feeling generalized anxiety all day long is not uncommon. This is "normal" for the anxious-personality person. It's safe. It is not harmful and you can still function. So just allow it to be there. Nuture yourself. Take care of you. What do you need to do that would make you feel soothed today? Take it day by day and just know that you are not harming your body by feeling this. With allowing yourself to feel these feelings you will find it passes much more quickly. (Fighting or resisting these feelings keeps them coming back - and even if you do this, it is not harmful. Eventually you'll grasp the "allowing" and get very good at it.)
"Life is not about comfort. It is about living." Dr. Howard Liebgold
I've had a lingering feeling of slight anxiety every now and then yesterday and today. It's not depressing, jus a bit annoying. I try not to point it out and give it more power than it deserves. I find that floating with it and knowing that it will pass always comforts me. Distraction helps out a lot too. I usually head out the door and find things to do (i.e. shop for a new cell phone, eat out at a restaurant, or even calling someone). You can always listen to your relaxation CD to calm your mind and body. Good luck with this.