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gopens · Post by **gopens** » Wed May 26, 2010 10:03 am

So I am not going to get into to long of a story about my past (I already have a thread about that on here a few pages back).

But just a quick update. I have come a long long waus in my battle with this crap. Over the past 3 months I have gone from a person that had troubles going 1 mile away from my house to a person that just last weekend went on a 60 mile drive with very little anxiety. I am eating out at restuarants and over all just doing much better. Sure I still have anxiety but I am able to deal with it much better

So yesterday I got a call about a job interview with a company I worked for 10 years ago and loved the job. This job truly has the potential of being a career move that I would love. But I found out that they are now trainging there employees about 15 miles from my house. This is tough for me. Sure I went on a 60 mile drive this past weekend but I was able to come home when I wanted to. The control factor. But If I am training I can not just get up and go home when I want to.

I think I am going to have to cancel this interview tomorrow and possible lose the chance of a lifetime for me. I really want this job so bad. But the anxiety is just keeping me in check. I know some are going to say just go to the interview. But its not that easy.

What sucks is I really know that anxiety is not going to hurt me. I am not afraid of dying at all. I know I am healthy and I do know its just anxiety. I am just afraid of embarrassing myself.

I called my doctor today and I am thinking of going on meds for the first time in 15 years since I have been dealing with anxiety. I just need something to take the edge away. Any advice out there. I am sorry for the ramble. If you have any questions please ask away. Thanks

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 26, 2010 10:41 am

Hear ya there !!!

Sometimes I just say FFFFFForget it ! You do loss part of control.I think of the time I'll have free to myself.

Best to you !!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 26, 2010 1:55 pm

What I do when I have somewhere "far" or "new" that I need to go is that I drive it when it doesn't matter. On the weekend, in the evening, whenever. I get "familiar" with it, make friends with it. Once you've done it, and made it, you have concrete proof that you CAN and HAVE done it. There is no longer a reason to panic because you've been there, done that, it isn't new anymore, no surprises.

Don't let anxiety stop your forward progress! This is how it gets us... how it's gotten me so many times in the past. I get complacent with my success and pretty soon start just settling for the status quo. Never gaining any new ground.

You take that job because God or fate or destiny the Universe has offerred it to you twice now. Whichever you believe in... personally, I totally a God person but... here it is, what a shame it would be to lose it over a big fat what if.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 26, 2010 2:21 pm

I agree 100% Hot Rod. I want this job so bad. And I know that if I don't do the interview, I will of done so because of anxiety--100%.

I love God so much and I try so hard to put this problem in his hands knowing he is going to take care of me. He always does. Its just hard.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed May 26, 2010 4:45 pm

Remember that you can always keep the interview and try to make it. If you try and aren't able, you're no worse off then if you cancelled, but at least there's the possibility that you'll make it and do just fine.

I often find that I'm always underestimating my abilities. I think that I can't do something but when I try, I actually do just fine. Give it a shot. You've got nothing to lose that you don't already have.

Jamie