I'm a mess! Everything overwhelms me!
Everything overwhelms me! I feel like I never get things done. I started crying today twice, once in front of a perfect stranger and once with my husband. I am so NOT in control of myself. I've listen to the tape twice and did the workbook. I bought a notebook to start a journal. If anyone reads it they will think I'm NUTS!! I'm so tired of worrying about things. Things that happened a long time ago. Worrying that people don't like me. Worrying about the future. Wondering if my husband and I will even be able to enjoy our retirement in a year or so. I feel guilty that I keep him from doing fun things because of MY problem. Oh well, maybe tomorrow will be better. When I opened my eyes this morning I was having an anxiety attack. Not a good way to start the day.
For almost my entire life I had anxiety and depression.I felt guilty,useless,worthless,intensely fearful,very shy and the list goes on.I bumped into this program and has got me thinking in such a positive way that a lot of my anxiety has calmed down already. I would have never believed I would have reached this point. don't get me wrong i still have a long road ahead of me. You will feel better again. Don't give up. Don't worry about how long it takes. Everybody heals at their own pace.Go back to session 2 and 3 that's what helps me battle the anxiety and depression. I use those skills for all my feelings. keeping a positive attitude and using positive talk all the time will begin to break the cycle of anxiety along with changing your negative thoughts to positive ones. stay with the program. things will turn around for the better for you.
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NinjaFrodo
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First of all congrats on taking the step to get the program and you are taking some steps to get better. Thats great, you are making some progress even if you don't feel like you are.
As for the journaling i bet if i had read something from it I wouldn't think you were nuts, hey we could compare if you really want to. I think i might still have some journal entries from 6 years ago when i first started the program.
I would tell you not to worry but that doesn't help, causes frustration and in a way is kind of insulting and ignorant because it isn't something we can just turn off, it really doesn't work that way.
Like you I still get anxiety when i wake up in the morning to, but it doesn't last too long once you have practiced using the relaxation cd for awhile.
You know listening to the tapes, working in the workbook and journaling are very good when it comes to learning about the condition which helps out tremendously but the most effective part of the program is the relaxation. You see when you have that stress response over and over and over again your body creates a tolerance to a chemical that turns off the stress response so you need more of that chemical to turn it off. The relaxation is like a manual turn off switch but of course it won't completely turn off in one relaxation session, it takes while but it is definately doable. I'm even actually proving this now in one of my threads if you want to keep track its at http://bbs.stresscenter.com/ev...9211001#692009211001
Keep in mind, you did not decide to become depressed and anxious, you don't get joy out of the condition and you didn't become this way to hurt other people so there really is no reason for the guilt or am i wrong?
Mike
As for the journaling i bet if i had read something from it I wouldn't think you were nuts, hey we could compare if you really want to. I think i might still have some journal entries from 6 years ago when i first started the program.
I would tell you not to worry but that doesn't help, causes frustration and in a way is kind of insulting and ignorant because it isn't something we can just turn off, it really doesn't work that way.
Like you I still get anxiety when i wake up in the morning to, but it doesn't last too long once you have practiced using the relaxation cd for awhile.
You know listening to the tapes, working in the workbook and journaling are very good when it comes to learning about the condition which helps out tremendously but the most effective part of the program is the relaxation. You see when you have that stress response over and over and over again your body creates a tolerance to a chemical that turns off the stress response so you need more of that chemical to turn it off. The relaxation is like a manual turn off switch but of course it won't completely turn off in one relaxation session, it takes while but it is definately doable. I'm even actually proving this now in one of my threads if you want to keep track its at http://bbs.stresscenter.com/ev...9211001#692009211001
Keep in mind, you did not decide to become depressed and anxious, you don't get joy out of the condition and you didn't become this way to hurt other people so there really is no reason for the guilt or am i wrong?
Mike
Here is the link to the Letting Go thread which is designated for venting
http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
You can follow me on Twitter, same username or check out my blog
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http://forum.stresscenter.com/viewtopic ... 52&t=25087
You can follow me on Twitter, same username or check out my blog
http://ninjafrodo.blogspot.com/
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steveracer
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i agree i am in the same boat tonight . had my first panic attack the other night in 14 years and have fallen back into afraid world a bit . i have beaten it once back in 95 so i know the program works . i fell outta practice over the last few years . and blame it on the stress of losing my dad and my wifes illnesses and fallin into smoking pot again an old nemisis and crutch