Hi there..
Im 31 and have suffered with anxiety and panic since i was 16.
I have been doing well but recently have had a set back. Not sure what brought it on but it's been about 2 months now.
It started with Leg cramps when I had my period and they lasted a week or so...i started worrying that I had MS or something so I went to doc. No one can find anything wrong and I am making myself sick. Now not only do my legs constantly ache but my whole body feels week. My doc is sending me for an MRI and said maybe Firbomyalgia. I really hope it's just stress...I have Clonazepam and when I take that it really helps. Anyone else experience all over weakness..I'm convinced i'm dying all the time.,...
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Hi! I have some leg discomfort...especially at night. I have mild anemia caused from heavy periods....If your doctor did not test for anemia.....you might get it checked. It's nothing serious...a lot of women our age n older have it. If you do he might give you an iron supplement which should take care of it. I too had a recent set back....Had attacks at age 20....overcame them...then @ 38 am having some set backs. Your not alone! I don't have full body weakness all the time...but my first few attacks felt that way....like i was weak all over n gonna pass out. When i started asking myself...."what was i thinking in the last 5 minutes" before i started to feel nervous or weak.....it would always trace back to something scary.....like..."what if i have a heart attack"....ect. ect....when i realized my previous thoughts had been so scary...i just told myself "ok, your feeling a little scared right now and that's ok. you were just thinking about a very scary thing...anyone thinking about that would feel just like you do. of course your feeling this way because of that thought or thoughts you were haveing. There is no danger...im just nervous and that's ok. It can't really hurt me. It worked after a little practice. Yet here i am again....needing to refresh my memory on some of these techniques!! I hope this helps us both so we can be free and love life again!!!
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This is off subject, but I am Light 3, AND THAT IS NOT MY RESPONSE DOWN THERE! How is someone else credited with something I did not write? This system has also wiped out my profile description. Something is wrong. What if all my other responses have gotten mixed up with other people? Will I get misjudged or loose my privacy?
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I have had increased anxiety since we were unable to send my child to college. My husband took and early retirement that totally changed our finances and future and the ability for college. I can't seem to forgive him or get past this anger.
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Hi knursed,
I understand how you feel and I know it is hard to be incapable of doing something that is so important to you. My situation was not nearly as bad, but my dad had told me my whole life that he was going to pay my way all through college and that I would not have to worry about it. But after my first couple quarters he just stopped supporting me, using stupid excuses like me going to summer school messed him up, or whatever. So being unemployed I was paying for college through loans but I barely had money to survive off of. Debts went way up in the apartment costs I used to pay, my medical bills from a disease I have didnt help, etc. I was always the needy person, the person who couldnt do the things that others wanted me to do, like simply eating out at fast food places, because I was broke. I was really upset at my dad, because I knew that the real reason that he stopped supporting me was his irresponsible use of his money. He just tried using me as an excuse for not holding to his promise, without having the dignity to just admit that he couldnt afford it because of some mistakes and conditions that he had to deal with. I was angry because it messed up my image as a person among my peer groups, and I always felt anxious about whether I was going to have enough food for the week or whether I would get kicked out of my apartment. I got depressed from embarrassment.
To help me deal with the anger, I tried putting myself in my father's shoes, and I reminded myself of the true intentions of his heart. He DID want to pay my way through college and he DID NOT want me to be poor; he loved me and thought he was being responsible. He just made a mistake; but at least the mistake had no evil motive behind it, or intentional carelessness. I focused on how tough the economy was for my widowed dad and many other people in the U.S., and based on the knowledge of the true intentions of his heart I have forgiven him, and my depression has lessened, and my anxiety decreased as I focused less on his mistake and more on how to overcome the negative results; dealing with anger at your husband in addition to how to help your kids is an extra load of anxiety that is avoidable.
I dont know your situation but I am guessing that your husband did not want to intentionally mess up your finances so that your kids could not go to college. I think he wanted them to be supported and he probably misjudged how to make that happen. I am guessing that it is a genuine mistake, not an evil careless intention. If so, pay more attention to the intentions of his heart, the reality that denial of money for college was not on purpose, and then even though it may have been stupid, put yourself in his shoes and visualize any understandable influences that may have influenced his unintentional actions, even if they are just plain stupid in your eyes. Maybe work was just getting too hard for his body, or he wanted to spend more time with you...I dont know, you have to reflect on that without anger, but rather, understanding, for he is human. Understanding these influences will not validate his mistake, but they will make it easier for you to be more apathetic to his reasoning that was not purely evil, as your anxiety may possibly make you think. If you focus on his heart and healthy intentions, knowing that he did not do it on purpose, then you can begin the process of forgiving him for his unintentional mistake as I have forgiven my dad. Focus on the positive, innocent side of your husband who made the mistake, then you will start having more positive feelings toward him and the challenges ahead that will help you to have the courage to move forward and help your kids, rather than dwelling in anger about the past. Dont let anxiety destroy your ability to overcome and fight back! Use forgiveness as your weapon towards the hardships of life. Evil wants to trap you in this anger, but your love focused on the positive will bring you out of the ditch and help you to overcome this dark situation. If I hadnt forgiven my dad through the positive focus stemming from my love, I would still be excessively poor and I would not be in grad school right now. Now I know that this is easier said than done, but if your love your kids, your husband, and yourself, start taking these steps of forgiveness, step by step, and you will start noticing progress and decrease in anxiety and depression, replaced by empowerment for change. If your need more help with the forgiveness process just let me know, because I have struggles with that stuff too. Forgive others as the Lord has forgiven you. The Lord forgave you with love, and through hard fought courageous love you too can overcome your anxiety and forgive your husband, moving forward towards a victory that your whole family will achieve.
I understand how you feel and I know it is hard to be incapable of doing something that is so important to you. My situation was not nearly as bad, but my dad had told me my whole life that he was going to pay my way all through college and that I would not have to worry about it. But after my first couple quarters he just stopped supporting me, using stupid excuses like me going to summer school messed him up, or whatever. So being unemployed I was paying for college through loans but I barely had money to survive off of. Debts went way up in the apartment costs I used to pay, my medical bills from a disease I have didnt help, etc. I was always the needy person, the person who couldnt do the things that others wanted me to do, like simply eating out at fast food places, because I was broke. I was really upset at my dad, because I knew that the real reason that he stopped supporting me was his irresponsible use of his money. He just tried using me as an excuse for not holding to his promise, without having the dignity to just admit that he couldnt afford it because of some mistakes and conditions that he had to deal with. I was angry because it messed up my image as a person among my peer groups, and I always felt anxious about whether I was going to have enough food for the week or whether I would get kicked out of my apartment. I got depressed from embarrassment.
To help me deal with the anger, I tried putting myself in my father's shoes, and I reminded myself of the true intentions of his heart. He DID want to pay my way through college and he DID NOT want me to be poor; he loved me and thought he was being responsible. He just made a mistake; but at least the mistake had no evil motive behind it, or intentional carelessness. I focused on how tough the economy was for my widowed dad and many other people in the U.S., and based on the knowledge of the true intentions of his heart I have forgiven him, and my depression has lessened, and my anxiety decreased as I focused less on his mistake and more on how to overcome the negative results; dealing with anger at your husband in addition to how to help your kids is an extra load of anxiety that is avoidable.
I dont know your situation but I am guessing that your husband did not want to intentionally mess up your finances so that your kids could not go to college. I think he wanted them to be supported and he probably misjudged how to make that happen. I am guessing that it is a genuine mistake, not an evil careless intention. If so, pay more attention to the intentions of his heart, the reality that denial of money for college was not on purpose, and then even though it may have been stupid, put yourself in his shoes and visualize any understandable influences that may have influenced his unintentional actions, even if they are just plain stupid in your eyes. Maybe work was just getting too hard for his body, or he wanted to spend more time with you...I dont know, you have to reflect on that without anger, but rather, understanding, for he is human. Understanding these influences will not validate his mistake, but they will make it easier for you to be more apathetic to his reasoning that was not purely evil, as your anxiety may possibly make you think. If you focus on his heart and healthy intentions, knowing that he did not do it on purpose, then you can begin the process of forgiving him for his unintentional mistake as I have forgiven my dad. Focus on the positive, innocent side of your husband who made the mistake, then you will start having more positive feelings toward him and the challenges ahead that will help you to have the courage to move forward and help your kids, rather than dwelling in anger about the past. Dont let anxiety destroy your ability to overcome and fight back! Use forgiveness as your weapon towards the hardships of life. Evil wants to trap you in this anger, but your love focused on the positive will bring you out of the ditch and help you to overcome this dark situation. If I hadnt forgiven my dad through the positive focus stemming from my love, I would still be excessively poor and I would not be in grad school right now. Now I know that this is easier said than done, but if your love your kids, your husband, and yourself, start taking these steps of forgiveness, step by step, and you will start noticing progress and decrease in anxiety and depression, replaced by empowerment for change. If your need more help with the forgiveness process just let me know, because I have struggles with that stuff too. Forgive others as the Lord has forgiven you. The Lord forgave you with love, and through hard fought courageous love you too can overcome your anxiety and forgive your husband, moving forward towards a victory that your whole family will achieve.
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PS The response I just gave to you is the REAL Light3, as is the other one before yours. The ones earlier before these are messages that I did not write... Stress is really irritating me...