I am having a bit of a set back

I gave birth last week wednesday to my beautiful daughter carmella!! I was induced because of preclempsia(HIgh blood pressure and swelling)
My blood pressure reading were hanging out around 180/100...yuckkkk...so they had to induce.
I was in the hospital from tuesday until saturday where they monited me even after I gave birth to check my BP...Well with all these hormons raging through my body..ANXIETY REARED ITS UGLY HEAD!!!! My bp kept creeping up and up and up..and the nurse freaked me out and said OMG thats high (it was 150/90) so to me that wads much better than what it was lol.
So she freaked out and that didnt help and for that friday and saturday I had a never ending PIT in my belly, and anxious adrenaline PIT!!! I was FREAKING OUT!! My BP readingds stayed arounf 140/88 the rest of the time so they put me on BP medication
Well now I am completely OBSESSED with taking my BP I want to take it all day. All I do is sit and think about it. I went to the doctor yesterday and it was still high like 160/88 and I know it was high bc I have TERRIBLE white coat syndrome NOW from that stupid nurse!!The doctor said I am at stroke level...mind you I am 26...not overweight..healthy. SO SHE FREAKED ME OUT MORE!! Because heart attacks and strokes are my TRIGGER!!!!
Ithink about it so much I have lost my appetite, and i am anxious and shaky. Im so lost because I have a newbown to take care of and I feel like I cannot control myself. I am scareed and feel hopeless. The doc said it takes up to two months for PreClemp to go away completely after birth. and I know my white coat symdrome and high anxiety are not helping...
I took my blood pressure this morning and it was 138/88..which Im still scared because im on bp medicine and Im scared if I panic enough I will have a sezuire. I dont know why my anxiety is coming back and im SO SCARED...
Any advice or anything would definetly help...please
