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Twisted Noodle · Post by **Twisted Noodle** » Mon Jun 01, 2009 3:40 am

Hi there, I just really wanted to post and say thanks for the positive feedback about these stupid obsessive scary thoughts. I have been having bad scary thoughts for a few months. They go from hurting myself to "what if I hurt my daughter". I have been very anxious to be left alone with her and it makes me so sad. I know that I would not hurt her because I do not like to even hurt bugs. It is good to hear that people do get better and do not suffer with this forever. They put me on 10mg of Prozac which seems to be helping me a bit and I take xanax as needed. I am also on week 5 of the program. I have just had a hard time telling myself it is just my OCD and not me. I look at my daughter and I sometimes get anxious and think bad thoughts then I get down on myself and think what the hell is wrong with me. I have suffered from anxiety since I was a little girl and have usually been able to keep in somewhat under control until these crazy thoughts started about five months ago. I sometimes doubt if I am a good mom and my husband is great at reassuring me that I am. He is also great at reasuring me that I will not hurt my daughter. Why can I not believe this too? I wish I could be a little more at peace with myself and my precious little girl. Keep the positive feedback coming. Some days are better than the others. Thanks to all.

Boon · Post by **Boon** » Mon Jun 01, 2009 5:43 am

We are born predisposed to ocd and anxiety. It's just the way it is. We are not responsible for the content of our thoughts - they are a neurobiological quirk. It's that simple. We are, however, responsible for how we deal with them. It is up to us to take responsibility for our actions and reactions. We can change our attitude toward what we are experiencing. You are in the process of doing that. Good for you. This program will teach you the tools to help you on your journey. So will Howard Liebgold's book - Freedom from Fear. He specializes in obsessive scary thoughts. Even if you never use these tools you will never hurt your daughter, and, yes, you are a wonderful mother. We tend to be excellent moms.

You can heal from this by learning how to manage your symptoms. Practice allowing your thoughts to come and go without any emotional attachment to them. This takes practice. Be patient with yourself. Soothing yourself through your process is important to your healing. Never judge. The content of your thoughts is immaterial. It's all bogus. All lies. Learn to minimize the anxiety and you will minimize those scary thoughts. The practice of "allowing" your thoughts to come and go without any resistance to them is key to managing these thoughts. As time goes by you will realize that they are not real and never have been real.

The doubts you have are part of the disorder. The doubts begin to leave as you work on yourself. Make those doubts OK to be there. Breathe into them. Reassure yourself that you are safe and so is your family - for this is the truth.

Keep working on yourself. You will see the changes that you are hoping for.

You'll hear the thoughts from time to time but you'll let them go easily. This is in essence the ocd cure.

h.beth · Post by **h.beth** » Mon Jun 01, 2009 6:33 am

all good thoughts=i am sure way better than i am gonna add as i do not have ocd--but scarey thts on other things i can experience. gonna share i had nitemares too close to real life past few nites and things i have dealt with and wished to learn how to deal better with, briefly i lesson 3d the first nitemare and found i needed to learn how to be more able to deal with such n such people, and went thru my house searching for helpful cd on self esteem/assertiveness for that nitemare. believe it or not next night had a totally different nitemare, and it was about something totally different i need to work on more=so i lesson 3d that one and found that i needed to be more prepared maps getting lost etc, like a girlscout, so am continuing to work on that one. i might be way off base here, but if you can identify what might be a reasonable way to help a bad thought and find a helpful way to upbuild your skills or distraction from bad thinking, then i hope you can find something to help YOU along to those ends, and not dwell on the "nitemare" of whatever is bringing your thinking down. luv being sent.

GatorsRanxious2 · Post by **GatorsRanxious2** » Mon Jun 01, 2009 6:54 am

Great post, Boon! You are a great influence on those who are suffering with the disorder. Thanks for all you do!
Gator

R0xyg4l · Post by **R0xyg4l** » Thu Jun 04, 2009 6:37 am

Twisted ~ I definetly know where you are coming from. I have these thoughts as well. I have a six year old daughter that I feel very anxious to be around alone. I am on Lamictal and Prozac and the combination is working wonders for me. I no longer have the thoughts very often. Maybe once or twice a day and I'm able to blow them off easier. My anxiety however is still an issue but I have only been on Prozac for around two weeks.

You will receive relief from this. My biggest fear is being around my daughter while she is sleeping. She keeps sneaking into my bedroom after my husband has gone to work and I find it's becoming more tolerable for me. There isn't as much anxiety. Slowly but surely we will get through this.

Just remember, you're a wonderful mother. You obviously do not want to hurt your daughter and I'm sure you will not. You are just someone who is very intellectual and analytical who has a very imaginative brain. Thats it. I've read people with OCD are less likely to commit acts of crime than the general population.

If you ever need someone to talk to, please feel free to PM me.

Best of luck,
Kristina

Trisha Rucker · Post by **Trisha Rucker** » Fri Jul 10, 2009 5:48 pm

Hi.Im Trisha and I have only been in the program for 2 weeks I thank you Boon For your input On scary thoughs I to have a little girl It makes me fill a littel better about my selfe.Am looking forword to learning more.Thank you Trisha.