continuous obsessing

diva · Post by **diva** » Mon Mar 24, 2008 9:10 am

I am really struggling with this today. I have a good number of obsessive scary thoughts and it seems when one leaves my mind another starts right up. Just when one disappears and I think I've gotten that fear beat it will creep back in maybe even weeks later. I don't understand this but its like a continuous stream of negative obsessing over one thing or another. My fearful thoughts just keep cycling and recycling. I'm not sure I'm ever without some obsessive thought for very long...its Sooooo frustrating and scary.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 24, 2008 9:17 am

Hi Diva!

Trust me...I know how you feel. I really mean this. Sun up to sun down I'm feeling axious, frustrated, & blue due to obsessive thoughts. There is a thread on here...."take heart those with scary obsessive thoughts". I'm not sure if you read any of it but it might help you too.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 24, 2008 9:28 am

My bad...the actual name of the thread is....

Take heart those with scary thoughts of hurting others

Maybe it will hit home for you...then again...maybe not...worth a shot though.... I know I was glad to find it.... this is my thing (a big part of it anyway)....we each have our own "thing"....once we can nail it down, we can hammer out the details and I beleive we can recover....maybe we'll come out better than before...you know the saying - what doesn't kill you will make you stronger - Superman better look out!

Good Luck To You Diva!!!!

Carolyn Dickman · Post by **Carolyn Dickman** » Sun Apr 13, 2008 7:13 pm

Hi diva, I am new to the program, however i do know exactly what you are going through. I do not have thoughts of hurting anyone else or myself. It is all medical, I feel like if I have a migraine one day then all the sudden I have a brain tumor and so on and so forth. Once I start thinking that I cannot get it out of my head. I go over and over it in my head. To the point that I will sit in my childrens room and cry my eyes out with the fear that I am dying of a brain tumor or some other horrible disease. I know better that to go get checked out by a doctor for one because of the money and also because of fear of test and things like that. I know what it is like to be so frustrated with yourself and your thoughts. I constantly wonder why I cannot turn them off. It has pretty much taken over my life. I beleive that I will get my life back and some releif with this program.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 14, 2008 2:41 am

JMCCRCC, Diva, and Rucca there is HOPE from obsessing!
OST's (my abbrv for obsessive scary thoughts) were one of my biggest symptoms..
I would obsess about anything, hurting myself or others,(yet never was I suicidal or homicidal), worry that I had a serious illness, or worry that one day I was going ot flip out and NEVER come bnack.
Well I am happy to say that I am still here!!!
This is just a major side effect of anxiety.
It doesn't even mean that you have OCD either.
The good news is that with this program, you can gain control of your thoughts, and how you react.
There will always be stress in your life, its all in attitude.
I really is. I have been through so much these last few months, from putting over $2300.00 into my car, (and I'm a broke college student =)) , seeing my grandfather who has always been healthy get ver y ill and he still in the hospital after a few heart and kidney surgeries and he has been in there sine the end of FEB.
to having to expereince an ex neighbor murder his wife (who was an amazin person) and then himself in a domestic violence dispute.
I mean I never ever could have handled things like this before I learned these skills.
It takes a LOT TONSSSSSSS of patience and PRACTICE but it's worth it.
There are still times when I get stressed and thise silly thoughts will pop in again, but that just goes to show me that it is my reaction to stress because it always pops up when I am experiencing a stressful event. ALWAYS!
I am even happy to say that I am lowering my already low dose of Lexapro. I am now down to 5mg and evnetually want to be off soon.
I know I can do this with these skills you just need to do the work and sometimes it is easier to stay stuck but if you do you just keep repeating the same cycle over and over again!
Life is short and it is meant to be lived to the fullest!
Please, get teh program if you do not have it and do the work!
I did the program 3 times! I am now finishing my 3rd time! I love it each every time!!
Here is also an article that I would refer back to when I was consumed with OST's.
I hope it helps all of you.
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Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jun 04, 2008 5:40 pm

wow I know how you feel jmccrrcc. I am a huge hypochondriac and freak out over everything. I have gotten myself so stressed out I wake up shaking in the morning. I just started taking luvox and wellbutrin so I hope it helps. I know your pain and its a miserable way to live. I always have this happen right after I have a baby. I hope you are feeling beter.