I've been asked to sing at Church

Star Gazer · Post by **Star Gazer** » Tue Oct 06, 2009 1:06 pm

I have had one dream since I was a child and that was to sing but along the way someone said something that made me think I couldn't. I became a closet singer. I'm 45 when I was in my late twenties I took some voice lessons but life got in the way and it was easy to cut from my routine. Around forty I got a chance to take voice again, they tricked me in singing in program I took anxienty pill and did it. I was surpriced when I came out I couldn't see anyone totally black. I did great people came up to me afterwards to tell me I moved them I freaked out at the attention I had to leave. My pasters wife was there, she asked me to sing at Church I said yes, it was a mess I could see everyone my throat closed up started to sweat. I did it but it was not good, one of the women from church who sings solo's patted me on the shoulder and said you'll get better. Not what I wanted to her, I want to sing only if it pleasing to God and fellow Church members. I quit voice, I just started again about a year ago, great teacher, learned alot. She says I'm totally ready I have to just keep getting out there or I will always be to afraid to try. She told me God gave me a gift it would be wrong not to use it. So the pasters wife asked me again last Sunday and I said I would now I'm losing control and getting more and more anxiety. I have 4 days to pull it together, I want to do this but having problem using tools because this has been a fear for so many years. Any help would be appreciated, Thank-you

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Oct 06, 2009 3:59 pm

I know what your going through. I need to get on a plane in 4 days and I have been worried about a panic attack on the plane. Let me share something that should help you it comes courtesy of Ms. T. She told me to remember that Jesus is right there with you. Just say to your self over and over that you are safe. Jesus will be standing with you holding your hand so there is nothing to worry about. May God Bless you and protect you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Oct 06, 2009 4:20 pm

You will do just fine, I know it. I was afraid too. Now my husband and I sing on the worship team once a month and I love it because I sing to Him. Of course we're backup for the main singers so that's different than singing solo. You have been told you have a gift and it would be an insult to God not to use it. Tell God of your anxiety and to work thru you. He will. He wants to use you for HIS glory. When you want to be used truly for him, you'll say, here I am God, everything I've got, everything I'm not, I want to be completely yours. You go girl!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Oct 06, 2009 4:22 pm

By the way, as clineng said about Ms.T Bones, she has been totally used by God with so many videos she recommends. Check any of them out in the spiritual section or wherever you see Ms.T Bones. She has such good advice and God greatly uses her for encouragement.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Oct 09, 2009 8:44 am

Star Gazer,
I am almost 59 years old and like you I always wanted to sing in church. Both of my sisters did, but I was so shy and bashful(also no one ever asked me). In HS I always entered the annual Talent Contest, but always backed out before it was time for the contest. Everyone has always told me I had a nice voice, but I never was asked to do a solo. I wanted take voice lessons, but my parents could not afford them and I never took them as an adult. About a year ago I rejoined our choir for the 4th time in the past 30 years. A month after I started, our choir director asked me to do a solo. I was terrified, but I did it because I wanted to prove to myself and the Lord that I could do it. Although I was scared, I did it. Since then, I have sung several other solos. About a month ago our choir director asked me to sing with him and another guy on the Praise Team every Wednesday night. I said yes. I still get scared, but the Lord has helped me through it all. Joyce Myers said some times you have to do things even when you are afraid. The Lord will help you all the way. Go for it girl!!!!!! I have faith in you, and so does God!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Oct 10, 2009 8:11 am

Thank-you RCA, I'm going to voice lesson today. I sing tomorrow the anxiety is growing every minute, trying to use my skills but still having to fight it. I going to do it because I have too, or I'll probably never do it again if I don't. I know it might not work out Like I want but at least I'll know I tryed and keep trying until I can do it. I know God's with me. It's me I'm afraid of do I have the faith to let go so he can do what he does best, carry me through it. I believe in Him but not myself. I have the voice I know but if my body takes over I'll be in trouble but I'll get through because He will stand by me. I'm not looking for perfection just a soothing sound to praise his name. He never fails me and if I don't try I will fail Him so I have to try. Pray for me and thank-you again for your support. I've had this anxiety over singing in front of people for over 30 years it might take a while to become more comfortable with it. I can except that but still really desire it to be pleaseing to his ears.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 11, 2009 9:50 am

Well I did it!!(sang at Church) I was very nervous and it might of shown a little but I made it through and everyone loved it. Now I have one under my belt, I hope it gets easier. Thank-you all for your support. I feel a little drained because I think I spent to much time dwelling on it during the week but not as much as I would of before CD's. One day at a time, thanks again!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 11, 2009 3:27 pm

Congrats Star:

It is so good to do what you fear.

Keep up the good work.
MJ