My first Christmas away from everybody
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Chris Hulett
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- Joined: Thu Dec 24, 2009 5:57 pm
My anxiety and depression are so bad I couldn't handle being around family. I'm at the lowest point of my whole life right now. Hospitalization is not going to help. I've been to so many hospitals it's pathetic. My body feels like crap. Every muscle tight as a drum. It's so uncomfortable to live. Since I moved back in with my parents, I've been to the psychiatric ward 3 different times in less than two years. I need to get out of this negative house. It really couldn't get much darker. The funny thing is, I've been here before more than I care to admit. You never get used to the mental anguish and physical pain and tightness of the muscles. I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I started the program today, and I'll give it a shot.
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Guest
Congratulations on purchasing the program! It is a set of tools, guidelines, instructions, that can show you the way to rest and release of tension, even by nanometers... there is so much rest and hope and peace for you and you know this truth even if you don't believe it. I'm chillin' by myself at Christmas too. It's not so bad... take a look at Shifrah's post "Christmas a downer" in the Spirituality section. A great perspective... I'd post a link to it if I knew how. Good luck and please update on how you are!
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Guest
Chris,
Yeah, I hear you. When this crap is at its "best" it is a bear. Life is miserable and I found myself dreading each upcoming moment. However, each moment DOES pass and you WILL get better. Remember, THIS is the worst... it's not coming up around the corner, you are already in it and are moving out of it. The program will help you, tremendously. Just remember that it takes time. If you are anything like me I wanted to be well NOW. And when it didn't happen NOW I got discouraged and wanted to give up. Don't do what I did! Just hang in there and know that each day you will get better and better. Sure, some days might not be as good as the day before but you will start noticing a sure and steady move in the right direction. Oh, and CELEBRATE EVERY little victory! I keep a large calendar and write down every victory I attained. That helps to look back to prove to yourself (and that liar, anxiety) that, indeed, you are getting better.
This site is awesome for advice and support and for seeing that there are thousands of us out here.
Also, start turning your focus to YOU. Not to how crappy it is in your parents house or what they think or blah blah blah. You need a roof over your head and a safe place to work on YOU.
I will pray for you and hope to see your posts soon!
Yeah, I hear you. When this crap is at its "best" it is a bear. Life is miserable and I found myself dreading each upcoming moment. However, each moment DOES pass and you WILL get better. Remember, THIS is the worst... it's not coming up around the corner, you are already in it and are moving out of it. The program will help you, tremendously. Just remember that it takes time. If you are anything like me I wanted to be well NOW. And when it didn't happen NOW I got discouraged and wanted to give up. Don't do what I did! Just hang in there and know that each day you will get better and better. Sure, some days might not be as good as the day before but you will start noticing a sure and steady move in the right direction. Oh, and CELEBRATE EVERY little victory! I keep a large calendar and write down every victory I attained. That helps to look back to prove to yourself (and that liar, anxiety) that, indeed, you are getting better.
This site is awesome for advice and support and for seeing that there are thousands of us out here.
Also, start turning your focus to YOU. Not to how crappy it is in your parents house or what they think or blah blah blah. You need a roof over your head and a safe place to work on YOU.
I will pray for you and hope to see your posts soon!
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Guest
Chris,
I wish I had a silver bullet, but I don't think one exists. All of us are on the treadmill, so in that respect you're not alone. I have my up days and my down days. I do know however that it is part of the process of constructing the new “me”. Try to take it easy on yourself. Beating yourself up over this isn't going to help. I like to think back to better days and re-experience those moments of happiness. Let my body reacquaint itself with good feelings, and in doing so I repeat positive affirmations to my self such as “I enjoy my life...I am capable of anything...people love my company” and the like. At first it wasn't easy (because I had convinced myself it wasn't true), but I'm making headway. I firmly believe that our emotional wellbeing is tied to how we talk to ourselves. Every “this day sucks...why is my body so messed up...why can't I be normal” comment takes us down that rabbit hole even deeper. If you can't think of any, try a few of these:
I let go of all fear and doubt, and life becomes simple and easy for me
I create a stress free world for myself
I slowly breathe in and out and I find myself relaxing more and more with each breath
I am a capable person and I can handle anything that comes my way
I am centered and focused
I feel more secure each day
I am safe when I express my feelings
I can be serene in any situation
I am comfortable with my finances. I am always able to pay my bills on time.
I trust myself to deal with any problems that arise during the day
I realize that stress is only fear, I now release all fears
I am in the process of making positive changes in all areas of my life
Woodbridge
I wish I had a silver bullet, but I don't think one exists. All of us are on the treadmill, so in that respect you're not alone. I have my up days and my down days. I do know however that it is part of the process of constructing the new “me”. Try to take it easy on yourself. Beating yourself up over this isn't going to help. I like to think back to better days and re-experience those moments of happiness. Let my body reacquaint itself with good feelings, and in doing so I repeat positive affirmations to my self such as “I enjoy my life...I am capable of anything...people love my company” and the like. At first it wasn't easy (because I had convinced myself it wasn't true), but I'm making headway. I firmly believe that our emotional wellbeing is tied to how we talk to ourselves. Every “this day sucks...why is my body so messed up...why can't I be normal” comment takes us down that rabbit hole even deeper. If you can't think of any, try a few of these:
I let go of all fear and doubt, and life becomes simple and easy for me
I create a stress free world for myself
I slowly breathe in and out and I find myself relaxing more and more with each breath
I am a capable person and I can handle anything that comes my way
I am centered and focused
I feel more secure each day
I am safe when I express my feelings
I can be serene in any situation
I am comfortable with my finances. I am always able to pay my bills on time.
I trust myself to deal with any problems that arise during the day
I realize that stress is only fear, I now release all fears
I am in the process of making positive changes in all areas of my life
Woodbridge