Need to take the power out of it.

Phoenix2010 · Post by **Phoenix2010** » Mon Apr 12, 2010 3:59 pm

So, on the topic of panic attacks. I have been having anticipatory anxiety over this one issue for the past week. A couple weeks ago, I received a phone number for the hiring manager of the person at the place I really want to work. I was told by the trainer who gave me her number, to wait a week, and then call her to tell her I am interested in a position, etc. My problem is, a week went by, and since then every day is spent obsessing about the call. I am worried what she might say/think. I am worried if she invites me for an interview that I may decide I don't want to work there anymore. Moreso, I am even projecting as far as "what if I get hired, and I hate it there, or I can't do the job..." On the other end of the spectrum, what if I am too late and I waited too long to call or what if she is annoyed that I am calling her?

I know after listening to Session 2, I need to use the 6 steps. I also set a "goal" with my therapist to call by tomorrow at 12pm. Until then, I am going to relax and accept the anxiety. And distract myself. And laugh at how absurd some of the thoughts are. I really did a tailspin with this one, but once I call, I am hoping the anxiety will subside, no matter what the outcome.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Apr 13, 2010 1:09 am

Hi there
It doesn't seem to matter what we obsess about, it's always something.Everything I read sounds like it comes from a low self esteem point of view. I have learned to take charge in a situation like that and figure out what is the worst case scenario? Seriously, if you call her and she is annoyed, you probably don't want to work for someone like that anyhow. It will just show you are eager. So did you call? Also, if you do work there and don't like it, you can always find something else. Let me know what happens and good luck. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF !!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Apr 13, 2010 7:46 pm

So, I called. The conversation was short and sweet. She was not annoyed. I told her I was interested in the position. She asked if I was experienced. I told her I just graduated a phlebotomy program and I am also a volunteer with her company. She simply stated, "There will be an opening posted on April 16." and informed me to apply online.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Apr 16, 2010 3:30 am

Hey Phoenix,

Isn't so funny how we terrorize ourselves. All those thoughts you were having and the call went as smoothly as could be. I do that aaalll the time and then I feel foolish after for getting myself all worked up. But the relief is so immense! Like tons off your shoulders. Like 'YES!! I don't have to agonize about THAT anymore!" Of course, we find something else tho

But I'm so happy for you. I'm proud of you for not letting the opportunity slip away like I've done so many times in my life. Next time you get anxious, think about how well this outcome was then just jump in there and get it over with, whatever it is. Well good luck, and I hope you get the job.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Apr 16, 2010 7:27 pm

Beating Heart - I know right! I do that all the time. Recently, I have been working on doing things in the moment as they come up. Usually, I let them build up and fester for a really long time. There was a time not so long ago (maybe even as soon as a few weeks ago), when I would put things off for weeks, before that months, and some things even YEARS!! Can you imagine? I am sure I am probably not alone in this, as I read your other post. What I am getting at is that it has been a conscious process for me. Stress the word process because it is still very awkward for me to confront things right away, AND among other things to say what's on my mind, like you said. Anyhow, a year ago, or even a few months ago, I would not have even called, and I sure I would beat myself up for it! So, making the call was a step in the right direction for me, and you're right, I did feel silly after I made the call...eventually, I would like to be able to just do things before I even get time to start obsessing! But, I still need some practice being assertive...

Anyhow, I really appreciate the positive feeback! And I checked online today, and the job hasn't been posted yet. I will keep you updated