I posted something about this recently. . . but didn't really get it all thought through.
yesterday I was feeling better and today suddenly feeling worse again.
I traced back my thoughts and found the one thought that started my chain of negative thoughts that made me feel depressed today. It started with a simple statement on the radio about how we should try to laugh more so that our family life is less stressful.
I started thinking how I don't laugh enough and I don't have enough fun. . . which changed to how rough it must be living with me. . . which changed to why I haven't had any friends call the last few weeks . . . which changed to basically . . . .just more negative thoughts.
Here I've been praising myself for not having the anxiety/panic thoughts and feelings lately, but now I'm just doing the same sort of thing in a different way. It's just causing depressed feelings instead of anxious ones.
But, I'm thinking the fix is the same. When I start thinking that I've really been depressed for two years or whatever. . . and that I'll never be just "happy" that is just more lies I'm telling myself.
I need to learn now how to stop those thoughts the same way I learned to stop the more scary ones.
I also realize that I have been burdening my friends and family with all my problems with myself and my marriage, etc (which is doing much better now) and I start wondering if people are just avoiding me cuz I'm such a bummer!
I want to turn that around too.
Any suggestions? I want to be the old positive bubbly me again.
I was thinking maybe it was hormones, but maybe it's not. . . which would be a good thing cuz I have control over some things more than others.