farthest i've gotten so far!!!

jaysonwv · Post by **jaysonwv** » Mon Mar 03, 2008 3:11 pm

i got this program in 98. i've had anxiety flare up greatly 3 times since then. the first time i got to session 4. the second time lesson 5. this time. i'm a lesson 7 and am going to keep going and make this program a part of my life. it needs to be for all of us. i don't think we ever graduate. we must be reminded. kinda hard with me cuz i have ADD also and it's hard to keep on a schedule. but i'm gonna put this program up there with breathing and eating!!! it's almost as important. i was house bound last summer. now i'm back home. back to work. doing martial arts and writing songs. i can't go anywhere i want yet. but i just drove on the highway for the first time in almost a year and i'm coming along. good days and bad days. i'm looking foreward to the assertive tape. gonna listen to it tonight for the first time. i hate confrontation like that. for me it's either screaming and fighting or not saying anything at all. time to man-up again and get it done. ok i'm rambling. later and God Bless all of you!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Mar 05, 2008 11:40 am

Hey jaysonwv,
Keep up the good work, I'm in session 7 myself, and I too, hate confrontation. I keep going back and reviewing previous sessions, just to remind myself what I'm suppose to be doing. If you need to any encouragement, just let me know. From one West Virginian to another, I'm here for you.

Peace be with You,
Rocky

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 06, 2008 7:11 pm

what's up rocky. this your first time having panic/anxiety? i had a little set back a few days ago. i tried the highway again and had my first breakthough panic attack while on klonopin. it scared me. thought the med would take care of all of that. but the funny thing is. 3 days later i'm still whining about it. but it lasted a total of 45 seconds. haha. it bummed me out some. but i'm getting back on the horse now. driving again the past few days. didn't expect to do it succefully a few times then panic the 3rd time i tried it. i was late for work and wasn't right in the mind mentally etc. the last thought i had before hitting the highway was. oh my, how could i get off here if i need help? who would help me? etc... that's not positve thinking. that's using the medication as a crutch and not a tool. redicating myself to this program again. need to review sesson 3 again and again. did use the 6 steps while i was having the actual attack. didn't pull over. just rode it out. i hit the exit and was fine....stop being a baby jayson! hit me up any time rocky. like to hear more of your story...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Mar 08, 2008 2:38 pm

Hey jayson,
Sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you, glad to see you rode out the panic attack. I'm not doing too bad, I really hadn't had any bad panic attacks for awhile now. I guess my thing lately is a little bit of depression. I feel like I'm going through a phase, not sure how to describe it or put my finger on it.

It could be the cold dreary weather, hoping that it'll pass when or before the weather breaks. It's nice hearing from you, hope to hear from you again soon. I'll try to check in more often. By the way, what part of West by God are you from? Do you know where Keyser is? Have a good one buddy.

Peace be with You,
ROCKROCK