Why do I hate being around people so much?

[celeron]

I'm sure this is anxiety related but I'm pretty sure its not social anxiety as I'm not afraid of people as such just really hate being around them and get depressed. In my current job it took me 6 months of depression before I felt like I could fit in and be myself. As I say I just get depressed, like out in a busy mall rather than being afraid I will just feel like crying. On Xmas day we had my family and the wifes family around, the house was packed with people who really like and cared about me, I hated them being there and just felt like crying.

I suppose I am a loner, I was brought up an only child so always prefered my own company, but as humans we are not made to be isolated, we are made to interact with other human beings but I can't. I go to work all week, at weekends I sit in the house all weekend usually by myself as the wife goes out to her parents etc but I am happy by myself and I know I shouldn't.

I'm just really confused and don't know what to do. Before I developed generalised anxiety I was really outgoing and had loads of friends, now I am painfully shy, I mean it took me 6 months before I could talk to the guys at work. Can anyone relate to my predicament?

[Guest]

I have been there!!! It is part of the anxiety though crying is a way to release the feelings of being out of control. I have been there sooo many times. If there are slot of people around I feel like getting out of the house. I usually get on the computer and just get out of the middle of it. I feel like that helps me, I too am a loner. I am not an only child but I wasnt close to my sibilig when I was younger so I stayed to myself mostly. I still do that, my husband is completly differnt from me and he likes being around people, me I could stay to myself most all the time. My daughter is good enough for me! I am starting a new job Monday and I too will be the same way as you in not getting close to anyone. I do like people but I just like me time. It is a form of social anxiety I have that bad in school. I was like that in college also. It is ok to be shy and want you time just try to take small steps in getting use to being around people and don't worry they will see your shy and understand. God bless

I hope this helped.
Jennifier