My Revelation, The Circle Ends Now!!

monty'smom · Post by **monty'smom** » Mon Nov 24, 2008 10:01 am

I have spent a lot of time the past couple of days looking over my life, a life I have lived for over 43 years and refuse to live like this anymore. These have been my thoughts and my new choices for living the rest of my life:

I was a victim both from what others did to me and then what I kept inside that ruined so many years of my life. I am not a victim anymore but rather a survivor moving on to a much better life.
I now choose to let go of the past and make the best of today and all my tomorrows I have left on this planet earth because I deserve all that is good.
I will choose my thoughts, they will not choose me or control me any longer. I am what I think and feel, a loving, caring, good person and deserving of self love and self kindness.
I will not settle for less than I know I can achieve, I will work as hard as I have to at every aspect of my life, failure is not an option any longer.
My marriage and all other relationships will not take the back seat while anxiety and depression thrive in the front seat.
Today I take back my life. It's a wonderfull life...I've just been looking in the wrong direction for too long!!!

Today is truly the first day of the rest of my life and I'm overwhelmed with joy and a huge smile. Wish you could see it!!!

I feel so powerfull and greatfull and so filled with all that is joyous.

Oh How I Hope You All Feel Like This SOON!!!

maigan_lynn · Post by **maigan_lynn** » Mon Nov 24, 2008 10:16 am

FANTASTIC!!!!!! I am SOOOOOO happy for you!
I feel I am on my way there too. Just a little extra work but I have your same attitude but i'm at a good place in my life for this to happen. I'm 25 and married and my husband is the most fantastic human on the planet. He deserves more from me than anxiety and moodiness and I deserve the same. I deserve to travel with ease and take part in the things that bring my friends joy instead of sitting in the back seat worrying....Yesterday I learned to take responsibility for my condition without blaming myself or anyone else. It's empowering knowing that I'm the one that keeps in ongoing so I'm going to be the one to stop it. And i'm motivated to do it. I want children one day I think and I won't let them have a mom who won't take care of herself. I am committed and willing to take uncomfortable risks in order to overcome my issues.
I am so proud of you, you can't even believe it! You're in a good spot and not every day will be easy but you're in a really good spot. Just keep committed because you deserve it even on the days when things seem grey. You deserve love from yourself, your friends, and your family. But most importantly yourself!

Searching for some peace · Post by **Searching for some peace** » Mon Nov 24, 2008 10:18 am

WOW. I am so happy for you! I can't wait to get to that point in my life! I just can't express how proud and excited i am for you....keep up the great attitude it will take you far...

Can't_be_beat · Post by **Can't_be_beat** » Mon Nov 24, 2008 10:40 am

AMEN!!

I love this post! These are the kind of posts that are worth reading and that bring encouragement to people.

I too have been living victoriously. I still struggle a bit with scary thouhgts, but I try not to let them control me but i control them.

Congrats, i am very very happy for you!!!!!

monty'smom · Post by **monty'smom** » Mon Nov 24, 2008 12:55 pm

maigan_lynn, peace, Can't be beat,

Thankyou all for the kind words. This has been so uplifting and although I realize I will have ups and downs I also really feel I will handle them with a different approach than in the past...YES!!

Can't be beat, Way to go, I wish you continued victorious living and the sacry thoughts can't hurt you...but you already know that!!

God Bless

DMP720 · Post by **DMP720** » Mon Nov 24, 2008 3:26 pm

Okay so I dont know if I am just really tired...but as soon as I read both of your posts I bust out into tears!! You're right...forgot this!!!!!!!!
Montysmom you put it in a good way....anxiety is no longer driving!

My boyfriend calls that other part of me ANNIE...Its almost like shes my other personality....I think im going to burying annie tonight once and FOR ALL.
Annie WAS sitting ontop of a beautiful successful caring talented 24yrold girl. Any tonight im lifting her off of me.

No one said just because you had a bad morning means your going to have a bad night.
SHES DONE ONCE AND FOR ALL.