im finally back

Little Italian921 · Post by **Little Italian921** » Wed May 14, 2008 7:14 am

internet wasn't working for a long time, i'm finally back. i've been writing in a journal long before i found out about this program. it always works for a little while. does anyone ever wish they could speed up the recovery process...wake up one day and be the person they once were...back when happiness was easy to come by? i think what hurts the most is the fact that i wasn't always trapped in this sad body. every once in a while i see that person i used to be fighting to shine through me once again. i am trying so hard to be the woman that i was born to be, but sometimes the storm cloud of hurt/anger still seems to take over my skin of innocence like a virus infects a computer. i would love to talk to a psychologist, but i'm not in the financial position to pay for such an advantage to my well being. any ideas?

im lucky that my boyfriend has the patience that he does, but i can sense his rope wearing thin. he feels that my lack of happiness is his fault. i keep telling him that it's not, but that type of thing is hard for any human to believe. i've never known such a man to try and help me as much as he does. i know for a fact that if i were the woman i used to be, we would as tom hanks says "fit together like peas and carrots" i know at times that he sees that woman shine through me and that is why he is still here. but his patience can only last so long. what can i say to him to assure these faults are that of my own?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun May 18, 2008 1:54 pm

I'm glad you're back online. It helps to get others' ideas and to reach out.

In my town, there are free and income-based programs for counseling. There is a women's center and some place funded by United Way. Make a couple calls and see what you can discover.

As for your boyfriend, I can't say. Perhaps, the support stuff in the workbook and the extra tape for loved ones?