i have a question that has been bothering me

kriskam01 · Post by **kriskam01** » Fri Dec 05, 2008 1:48 am

is ocd just a worry that has gotten out of control. i find myself always questioning if i have it or not becuase i tend to always think back on what i went through and just have to tell myself it was anxiety. latley i have been worried it is all my bc pill that is causing the anxiety. my counselor said no to the ocd part for me just severe anxiety so i am kind of confused on what she ment by no ocd becuase i tend to always go back and remember things especially when i enter a room where i had a scary thought.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Dec 05, 2008 2:31 am

I know that our thoughts can paralyze our bodies. My head tells me a lot of lies. I heard one day that my head is out to kill me. One day I was driving around and saw a bumper sticker that changed my perspective on life. SERIOUSLY!! It said,"Don't believe everything you think". I hope this has a similar effect on you. I am so grateful that I have this place to go to. I start my day off here and it puts my head in the right direction for today....and isn't that really all we have is today? I choose to live in the solution and not in the problem. It makes the world a better place. Hang in there.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Dec 05, 2008 2:40 am

thank you very much for your comment. i totally agree with you on the bumper sticker. i am doing way better then before i found this program. i haven't completed it yet but what i have seen is just exacatly what my counselor does. so i think i have it pretty good to have these two to fall back on. when i wake up in the morning and something triggers me to think back to those long anxiety months i recently went through i can actually change my thoughts now where before i was sooo scared i just kept letting the negative take over and the scary thoughts just got worse and worse. i know that God doesn't give you more then you can handle and i have realized there are all kinds of ups and downs in life that is just part of it and the first time in my life i have had a down but i am on my way back up to where i was and don't want to look back.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Dec 05, 2008 3:15 am

Kris Does it really matter if it has a name(ocd etc.)? I can now recognize when I have a negative thought that I am repeating to myself. I stop verbalizing it. I do something else or start a different conversation. Its natural to associate a negative thought with a location. If a horse gets scared in one location it may get apprehensive whenever it gets to that location.Does that make that horse OCD? Maybe that is a form of learning in the brain to enable one to survive. since the brain doesn't know if your thoughts are real, your body responds as though it were a real threat. I could say this simpler, what was that lesson, if it makes you feel sad, mad, angry, worried.go back to that lesson. You are doing great.

aj85 · Post by **aj85** » Fri Dec 05, 2008 5:19 am

thank you stock lady. no it doesn't matter if it has a name i don't want it to have a name. that is my problem i dwell on my anxiety thinking there is something wrong with me. for example i went back to work part time to help get this mess off my mind and it has helped but then i find myself thinking oh no am i going to think like that again when i get home. it is sooo a habit i know. thanks for you info.

Lew · Post by **Lew** » Fri Dec 05, 2008 12:39 pm

Kris, when i went to work i would always worry too about "oh im just going to feel bad when i get home!" I was confused too if i have ocd or just panic disorder or what! I am confused a lot. I think i used to really just have the "obsession" part of OCD. Now im worried if i have bi polar because my moods are not stable. I too would feel a bad vibe when i go back to place where i had scary thoughts. I hated my old apartment because that is where everything started. I never felt comfortable there it sucked so bad. Honestly, i moved mostly because of that reason. I really understand what you are saying. I am in BC pills too and when i went off them i was worse So sometimes they can help you. Maybe if you can, see a psychologist and talk and see what they diagnose you with? I was diagnosed with panic disorder and major depressive disorder and i agree 100% that thats what i had. I talked to him and asked if he thought i had ocd and he said maybe I had some parts of it. Mostly the obsessing but that people with severe anxiety obsess too and that it is hard to say sometimes when someone has ocd unless it is totally clear. Just like with Bi-polar. Its a hard disorder to diagnose and sometimes over diagnosed BUT if you have those manic episodes and than the low episodes right after its pretty clear that you may have bi polar. . . you know what i'm saying? Anxiety can make us think we have everything in the world. Do you take meds?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Dec 06, 2008 4:10 am

thank holly for your info. i have seen 2 diff doctors and a couselor and all 3 diagnosed me with severe anxiety disorder followed by a trauma which was my surgery last feb. i had never had surgery and was terrified. when i got to the hospital they were supposed to give me something to calm me down but didn't. that shows you there i was in panic mode from the get go. i was then brought to the back for surgery 2 hrs later and was still not given anything i was crying my eyes out and terrified. i then went threw the surgery and was fine just panicky when i woke up. i got home and was fine the first couple of days. they gave me some pain meds and like the 3 day i think i started having a feeling like i couldn't catch my breath i was alone and i paniced. i walked outside to help get some fresh air and that is when it all started. i then remembered i had a refill for lexapro 10 mg that i had taken the year before for anxiety at work. nothing like what i was about to go through. so i had it filled and took it. ok let me just say i have been very lucky and never had any kind of side effects taking lexapro or zoloft in the beginning and both have worked well with my stress anxiety with work. this time i guess i didn't start it like i was supposed to i took a whole pill instead of half and it had been over a year since i had taken it. i woke up that night that i took it with horrible heat waves of nausea and panic. i continued taken it for 6 days then got off after all i did was cry because i didn't know what was happening to me. i was also on yaz birthcontrol and i had heard sometimes with surgery it can mess with your pills so i stopped those mid cycle (not a good idea) i was an emotional rollercoster. i was not like this before my surgery. i was then scared of sharp objects and scared to be alone with my kids because i was terrifed i would hurt them becuase of these panicky feelings i was having and not knowing if i was about to snap or not. i was not diagnosed with anything other then anxiety and like holly i was terrifed after i read things and thought i had all the signs to diff illnesses when i didn't my big one was bi polor i was terrified i had that. my counselor has reassured me several times that i don't have it. she acutally diagnoses and treats people with that illness. so that makes me feel good right there. besides i don't have any of the symptoms of that disorder other then the moodiness but is usually right before i start like every other woman out there. this typing this makes me feel better i guess it is theropy letting me write out what happened to me and know that i have not had it all my life and it is something that just came on after a trauma and it will go away. i still have my days were i feel panicky but i can distract myself so much better then at first. i am back on yaz birthcontrol and have felt way more panicky then i have in the last 9 months but in those 9 months i have been throught 4 diff pills trying to find one that works with me. we shall see.

anxiety is just a fear let it be there and it will go away.