Can anyone answer...Why?

BronzeStar45 · Post by **BronzeStar45** » Wed Feb 06, 2008 12:04 pm

I have been pondering this all day..Why do I obsess about the smallest and stupidest things? Why do I have a terrible routine that takes me 15 mins just to get out of my house? I have to look at a picture of Mount Rushmore and see Thomas Jefferson smiling at me. Im serious, and I dont think Im crazy. I have to look at myslef in 3 differant mirrors before I go. I have to check 1 differant things before I can get out of my hosue. Is there any logical reason to why? Am I normal? I mean Thomas Jefferson SMiling..then the anxiety kicks in with "Why do I feel this way, why do I have to do this? am I crazy? is that picture going to start talking to me and im going to go nuts? Help!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 07, 2008 4:01 pm

You are not crazy. That is a classic case of OCD. It takes me at least that long to get out of my apartment in the morning too. And I go through a whole bunch of compulsions before I can leave. Stick with the program. I hope it helps us all. In the meantime, know that you aren't alone in this.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 07, 2008 4:41 pm

Yep possibly, BronzeStar45.. I think I might be able to take a crack at it, but, of course I'm no Dr., but it sounds to me like by doing certain ritual(routine everyday)activities that it maybe on some level reinforces in your mind or brings on a feeling of calm and that everything will be o.k. For some reason, it sounds like it happens to have something to do w/this particular visual imagery at Mt. Rushmore, maybe due to the symbol of strength of our forefathers and country that may in some way provide a feeling of safety & peace.. This is just an amateur analysis from the gut level, but who knows.. I guess stranger things have been known to happen. Who can argue w/what works for one may not be the same for another, right?

By the way, I do not think that 15+ minutes prior to departure is any major problem, I concur w/tracylynn79 in that it typically takes me longer as well.. We probably all have some form of attachment to something in terms of routines as well since all of these are probably formed based on long established habits, feelings & beliefs, so not to worry, hey, if it works & it ain't broke, don't overanalyze maybe..

I think I have my own share of blockages or obstacles that seem to prevent or delay my being able to always report to work early or just on time.. It seems like in some odd way, the entire 9/11 situation occurring not terribly so far away on that fateful, horrific day has still left some scar or forgive the words, fallout residue in my psyche, even maybe unconsiously on some level prevents or precludes me from appearing around or just before the time that this happened in the event it could somehow God for bid reoccur.

Keep the faith & great wishes for peace & much support..

A recent newbie to the program who's unsure whether I should even be part of this at all, but I do feel more hopeful that I'm not alone as well.

Take care & all of the best that you so richly deserve !! May God & the special angels watch over & protect you, BronzeStar45..

For now.. Stay well, mind, body & spirit!

Beth(ers) F.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 08, 2008 10:30 am

Thank you both very much. It is difficult to understand but together we shall rise above it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 11:52 am

I can't leave the house or turn off the tv unless it's an even number. You are not alone.