Depression and BPD

[Sagi13]

This is the hardest thing for me to overcome right now, but I am trying to recently start Lucinda's program after a year of battling depression, changes in medications and therapy.

I was recently hospitalized because of a half way done suicide attempt. Once I got to the hospital, I realized through my diagnosis sheet that my therapist for the past 10 months has been treating me as a dpressive borderline personality disorder patient without even mentioning this to me from the onset. I am deeply disturbed and anxious because of the research I've been doing and the poor prognosis for people with this condition.

I am currently taking medications for this, but after I was dishcraged out of the hospital, my therapist and psychiatrist refuse to take me back and I have no outpatien forms of treatment. I am actively looking for someone to see me as my meds are diminishing by the day.

What I don't understand is how a therapist and doctor don't give you a right assesment of things and then just drop you as if you're worth nothing.

I am trying to cope with this illness the best I can, but I don't have as much support as I would like. My mother asked me to move in with her for a while so she can get me help overseas, I'm terrified of this idea since New York City is the place for cutting edge therapy in the world I guess. At the same time, I miss my dog who I've had to ship over to my mom because my building doesn't take in pets.

I know confusion is part of BPD, but at the same time I feel trapped. Just wondering if anyone in here has any thoughts on this and also wondering if any of you have been diagnosed with BPD as well as depression. This is the most misdiagnosed mental illness and it's devastating to actually live with. To top it off, my therapist thinks there's no cure for it, just a way to manage it..that makes me all the more hopeful (sarcasm).

[No Gluten/Wheat Girl]

BPD is just a label, and a terrible one at that. It is not accurate. BPD is actual of complex for of post traumatic stress. It's a behavior emotions thing you can overcome with God's help. I know a lot about this as I have studies it over a year now extensively. These psychiatrists are looked to as Gods, when in fact there are facts and studies that show the majority of people in this type of field are at the highest rate of suicide themselves. They had issues to pursue this field to figure themselves out. Over 80 percent do not even believe in God. I send over a big hug to you. You can take control of your emotions. This is a very misunderstood "label" That's the things with labels, they can be removed. I know, because I used to be a classic case of BPD. I had a childhood that was emotionally and sexually abusive. I felt very misunderstood. People with BPD are usually some of the most compassionate people on earth, very sensitive and loving. The behaviors are usually out of sheer frustration to be heard and understood. When I get really upset when someone does something terrible or says something terrible intentionally, I pray to God to make the situation just, I don't take it into my own hands anymore. I used to pull out the big guns so to speak and return comments or hateful things 10 fold. God is a just God and not a single thing goes unnoticed. Learn how to self comfort and how to relax your body in times of severe stress. BPD is a person who is in a flight for life kind of emotional sharpness in times of great stress or loss. BPD is curable. I know this for a fact....God Bless you and comfort you. Do not wait for everyone around you to understand you or admit their mistakes toward you...because it will never be satisfactory for your healing. Treat others in love, kindness and compassion. Read your bible every day...one that you can understand, like a devotional bible if you can't grasp all that biblical language.

God promises you, that He will make every crooked path straight

Every past disappointment will fade in comparison to the Glory He has in store for YOU...remember too, that God makes those who have suffered into the most outstanding shining examples of His wonderful works...so consider yourself extra special in Gods sight.

[No Gluten/Wheat Girl]

I wanted to add too that I used to take med for depression. In my case, the depression was caused from a digestional disorder. I was intolerant to gluten/wheat. Your brain won't get the nutrients it needs if it can't absorb the vitamins and minerals you are investing. It messes with your glucose levels which in turn mess up your seritonin levels. I studied a lot before making the decision to get off the depression meds and then informed my doctor I was, not asking him. I ate healthier and exercized by walking. Offer to take a neighbors dog for a walk, especially between 11 a.m. and 3 p.m...it will help restore your seritonin levels too. Try to go gluten/wheat free for a week. See my other posts about this subject.

BPD is just a very intense reaction to protecting your feelings. Don't let a psychiatrist say you can't be cured, because you can. Define what "cure" means. I will always be labeled as gluten intolerant or "a Celiac" but it's really cured if I don't eat gluten, so what's the difference. I was diagnosed bipolar instead of bpd because it gets covered under insurance easier..I no longer have those behaviors, so I am no longer BPD...People with BPD don't boil rabbits of ex-lovers, they are the rescuers of animals...the strays and have extreme compassion for others. When you get angry with someone, try to look at their face and imagine them as a little baby at one time. They are human and learning, making mistakes too. Try to remember that they have encountered life experiences that have shaped them into the person they are. Once you stop judging others, you find you judge yourself less harshly I found.

Just wanted to add this...