I miss me!! Please help
I was laying in bed like I always do all day with the curtains drawn so no light can get in. I saw the program and decided I had to do something? I have lost all my family and friends.I have drained them all out and to be honest.I don't blame them.I have a job I love so much that I can't get out of my house to go. I hate myself so much that since the age of 16 I don't turn on the bathroom light to get ready. I don't like who I am or what I see.I give myself just enough hall lighting to put on my face for the best performance of my life playing everythings great at work. I could win a academy award for this.I am going to loose the best thing in my life.My job. I have such anxiety when I'm walking in and seeing everyone who talks about me friends who I thought I could trust.Then see millions of people in and out of my life everyday happy to be here and I just want to get out.I don't want to feel this way anymore.I have lost so much of my life and good times.This is my last hope.I don't have any more tears left.Is anyone else out there recovering and can please give me support. It says to have a partner.I have nobody.No,I have all of you.Please help me want to open my windows come out of the dark and want to see myself.I am ashamed of many things Ive done and I know that is why I can't look at myself.I worry I ordered this and I'm not going to get better.Another day and I'm inside curtains drawn escaping the world I wish I had the courage to re-enter and change all the things I did to make my friends go away.I miss me.
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Costew,
First of all, you're in the right direction! I'm proud of you! You ordered the program, and your seeking to find you again! By posting your story here shows that you have strength, courage and willingness...give yourself a high-five for that! You haven't given up on yourself, you've proven that!!!
Therefore, My first suggestion is to JUST DO IT!What have you got to lose? listen to your first week cd.(if you've received the package already, if NOT than come on to this board often, and read other stories/posts)..Just knowing that your NOT alone with bring you comfort! I know it did for me.. As you continue, YOU WILL FEEL BETTER! All of us are here for you, so write as often as you wish. We've all been in the place you are in. I'm praying for you, my friend
you will be okay!!! If you've gotten the package, the relaxation tape is the best!! by controlling our breathing, it lessens everything else. Open the curtains, it's a beautiful world out there. Nothing you've ever done is so bad that it can't be forgiven!! and believe me, we all have a past.. Please remember that! I hope this helps you! And I will be looking forward to reading your future posts! Take Care
Robin
First of all, you're in the right direction! I'm proud of you! You ordered the program, and your seeking to find you again! By posting your story here shows that you have strength, courage and willingness...give yourself a high-five for that! You haven't given up on yourself, you've proven that!!!
Therefore, My first suggestion is to JUST DO IT!What have you got to lose? listen to your first week cd.(if you've received the package already, if NOT than come on to this board often, and read other stories/posts)..Just knowing that your NOT alone with bring you comfort! I know it did for me.. As you continue, YOU WILL FEEL BETTER! All of us are here for you, so write as often as you wish. We've all been in the place you are in. I'm praying for you, my friend
you will be okay!!! If you've gotten the package, the relaxation tape is the best!! by controlling our breathing, it lessens everything else. Open the curtains, it's a beautiful world out there. Nothing you've ever done is so bad that it can't be forgiven!! and believe me, we all have a past.. Please remember that! I hope this helps you! And I will be looking forward to reading your future posts! Take CareRobin
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Hey costew,
I think it is wonderful that you get up and still go to work that proves you have enormous strength something that I can't do at this point. You are not alone and Momof6 is so right there is nothing that you have done that cannot be forgiven we all have pasts. You have all of us here now to post and talk to or to come onto chat there are alot of people on chat and on the forums to talk to and to make you feel better. The program is wonderful and you will get better and I agree again with Momof6's wonderful advice open those curtains honey there is a wonderful world out there. There are alot of wonderful people in here too that totally understand you. So welcome to your new life and to having alot of new friends.
God bless you on this journey
Mimi
I think it is wonderful that you get up and still go to work that proves you have enormous strength something that I can't do at this point. You are not alone and Momof6 is so right there is nothing that you have done that cannot be forgiven we all have pasts. You have all of us here now to post and talk to or to come onto chat there are alot of people on chat and on the forums to talk to and to make you feel better. The program is wonderful and you will get better and I agree again with Momof6's wonderful advice open those curtains honey there is a wonderful world out there. There are alot of wonderful people in here too that totally understand you. So welcome to your new life and to having alot of new friends.
God bless you on this journey
Mimi
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Costew,
Thats pretty much called depression, but your pushing against it everyday by going to work. You should be PROUD of yourself!
You know what? Mistakes in life help us learn lessons. Regardless what you have done, you are forgiven, and its a learned lesson.
Dont be ashamed of who you are, but be willing to start changing to be a better YOU!! The program helps with that! Open them curtains, let the LIGHT shine in!!! Look at your pretty face, and see how it glows!!! ONce the light shines, all the darkness is gone!! Thank you so much for sharing! The past is gone,, Start NEW right NOW today!!! then Move Forward.. Take care Nelly:)
Thats pretty much called depression, but your pushing against it everyday by going to work. You should be PROUD of yourself!
You know what? Mistakes in life help us learn lessons. Regardless what you have done, you are forgiven, and its a learned lesson.
Dont be ashamed of who you are, but be willing to start changing to be a better YOU!! The program helps with that! Open them curtains, let the LIGHT shine in!!! Look at your pretty face, and see how it glows!!! ONce the light shines, all the darkness is gone!! Thank you so much for sharing! The past is gone,, Start NEW right NOW today!!! then Move Forward.. Take care Nelly:)
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Hello costew-
I agree with the two other posts. I have been thru the program and it has permeated my life. Just accept the new information and put it into practice even if you can't believe that it could help. Fake it until you make it like they say. And you are on your way. Take it as slow as you need and listen to the sessions as many times as you need. Often you will hear different things at different times. I have also found that taking sugar and processed food out of my diet help me feel good and daily exercise is like an anxiety antidote. I will also pray for you right now, as soon as I sign off. Please don't look for yourself as the "old" way you were- you will be like a new butterfly real soon. You are in your cocoon phase right now.
I agree with the two other posts. I have been thru the program and it has permeated my life. Just accept the new information and put it into practice even if you can't believe that it could help. Fake it until you make it like they say. And you are on your way. Take it as slow as you need and listen to the sessions as many times as you need. Often you will hear different things at different times. I have also found that taking sugar and processed food out of my diet help me feel good and daily exercise is like an anxiety antidote. I will also pray for you right now, as soon as I sign off. Please don't look for yourself as the "old" way you were- you will be like a new butterfly real soon. You are in your cocoon phase right now.
Hello Costew,
Like the others have said, we have all been where you are now and are all at different stages of recovery. It is a process. Take as much time as you need to process the information in each weeks lesson. Tell yourself each day that you were created by God and that He loves you and will carry you through this difficult period in your life. Tell yourself that you are worthy of forgiveness and believe that you are forgiven for all previous mistakes. We all have made many mistakes along the way, but that is in the past. Begin now embracing the present. I know you can do it. You have the courage to go to work everyday. That takes so much strenght. Be proud of yourself and your accomplishment. Praise yourself for being able to do this. Each day take a small step forward, even if it is just getting out of bed or opening the curtains or looking in the mirror and saying I am worth it and I deserve to be happy and to love myself. Be proud of each new step you take and know that you now have a whole new group of friends that understand you and are willing to listen.
I will keep you in my prayers that you will press onward with this program and I know that you will succeed. I have said it often that I miss me and where did I go, but we are on our way to the new spectacular "us"!!! May God bless you with renewed strenght!
Mary Lu
Like the others have said, we have all been where you are now and are all at different stages of recovery. It is a process. Take as much time as you need to process the information in each weeks lesson. Tell yourself each day that you were created by God and that He loves you and will carry you through this difficult period in your life. Tell yourself that you are worthy of forgiveness and believe that you are forgiven for all previous mistakes. We all have made many mistakes along the way, but that is in the past. Begin now embracing the present. I know you can do it. You have the courage to go to work everyday. That takes so much strenght. Be proud of yourself and your accomplishment. Praise yourself for being able to do this. Each day take a small step forward, even if it is just getting out of bed or opening the curtains or looking in the mirror and saying I am worth it and I deserve to be happy and to love myself. Be proud of each new step you take and know that you now have a whole new group of friends that understand you and are willing to listen.
I will keep you in my prayers that you will press onward with this program and I know that you will succeed. I have said it often that I miss me and where did I go, but we are on our way to the new spectacular "us"!!! May God bless you with renewed strenght!
Mary Lu