Dear Diary

[tina martin]

So happy when you reappear. Yes, things are quiet except for periods of active spam (joking). But WebAdmin has been wonderful helping us. I think FB has the claim on everyone. Seems I'm the only one in the world who does not "get it." I like it here and at Zone. R, am always so thankful that you enabled me to be here.

J, thought you were busy with work. Mercy, I'd be so skeptical of engagements with a ready made family. She is so young. CMA, CMA, CMA, Good Lord. Am almost done with the book. For me it is his most brilliant book yet. I'd acquit her too and throw mom and dad in the slammer.

[Paisleegreen]

Hi all, I've been away. I've been helping my sister get some needed medical help. It has consumed my time and energy.

She is here for a few more days and hopefully things will get back to normal. Whatever that is... I got my Christmas tree up, but that's about all. I barely have energy for that...as this sister and family dynamics with siblings have affected me emotionally. Talk w/ you later. P

[tina martin]

Sorry about your sister, P, but glad to see you here. Thought you, like others, are lost to FB.

We cannot let family destroy us. This is a daily battle for me too. My brother is in hell. Does that mean I have to be there too? What a struggle.

[Paisleegreen]

Hi Tina--Yep, this sister is the one that "collects", she spends her limited income on thrift items that she is going to sell someday on EBAY. When she can't even operate a computer. So it is very frustrating... Gotta go.

[bunny rabbit]

Hi Everyone: Well it's soon going to be Christmas and I am getting out of town, escaping up north to a timeshare while my husband drops me off and goes back to work. Ahhhh, peace, solitude, quiet, a winter wonderland in the woods with some deer, a jacuzzi, a fireplace, I can't do Christmas this year so if family members are upset so be it. I want to run away and not come back. I teach piano so the piano recital is this Friday. Then I'm off back in time to cook a turkey and show up at my mother's. I've got escape routes planned, if things get really bad I can go down to the lobby in the building and sit and read. My mother is the queen of stoic, stiff upper lips. She is my greatest teacher for sure. I am learning how not to react to her and be so affected by her. It is a challenge.

My daughter is already dating. Can you believe it? It would be wonderful if she would take some time to look at her part as Chief Codependent Enabler in this horrendous marriage. But that's up to her. I can't do her recovery work for her. God in His mercy is helping me bit by bit to stand back and see the big picture. This marriage wasn't a mistake. My dau has to learn from it how to be different and to change. God can work it all together for good somehow, someway... I don't know but He does.

Love from a frazzled, burnt-out, exhausted Bunny

[Paisleegreen]

Hi Bunny- Have fun at the Condo! I totally understand the Christmas festivities and such. I'm so tired from caring and listening to my sister, that I'm not getting much done in the Christmas department. Already celebrated two Grand children's bdays who are in the same family.

I do feel behind and probably expecting too much of myself. So maybe just having the tree up is enough for now. I only have the on son at home, but he really isn't connected to Christmas activity nor is hubby. Gotta go.

[Loveslife]

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!!!

I miss you all, but I am working non stop and loving every minute of it. I never knew I was this strong.

I will be in touch when things slow down, and I can read through this page.

I LOVE YOU ALL...

XO

Jamie

[tina martin]

Hi Jamie,

So wonderful to hear from you, to know that you are strong and ever stronger. Happy Holidays to you and your family, and everyone else.

XO, XO, XO........Tina

[Paisleegreen]

Hi all--Well, Christmas was nice, I kept it simple and felt less stress. I did want to report that I got the book on CD that J and T talked about from the beginning. I didn't ask for it, but I told my kids that I like books on CD, so I will now be able to listen to it and know all what J and T missed about the old website you went to. I hope you all are doing well and have a Happy New Year!

[bunny rabbit]

Hi Everyone: Well, Christmas is over and we somehow all survived. I had a great time up north. When we left it was a winter wonderland. The trees were laden with fluffy, new snow and it was beautiful. It was hard coming home. The only mention of my dad, sister and best friend all dying this past year was in my prayer at the table. No one said a word about any of them. It's hard to grieve alone in this family.

Dear Daughter is so excited about her new relationship. She's not even been out of the marriage for 2 months yet. Ouch!!!! I am worried and obsessing, not sleeping, frustrated, afraid that she will be hurt again, wanting to slow her down, tell her she needs time out to heal before getting seriously involved with someone else. I don't think she hears a word I say. Grrrrrrrrr!!!

I know I can't control what she does no matter how much I want to. She's an adult and she has free will as we all do. At least she's no longer using alcohol to numb her pain or thinking of going back to her abuser. I am very grateful for that.

Love from a Controlling Obsessing Bunny Rabbit