Maeggie,
I will hold you up in prayer and just know how many people care about you and are thinking of you and that have been where you are and are with you in prayer and in our hearts. If you ever need to talk I think someone mentioned tonight that you are Canadian as am I so if you live near by or even if you don't maybe we could share together if you need someone to talk to I am here honey. Just remember you are loved and cared about more than you will know. Hang in there sweetie sending you hugs and blessing.
God bless
Mimi
how do you handle the overwhelming suicide feeling?
What a coincidence I came across this forum about suicide and cutting. This week I started cutting myself again after I had stopped for over a year. I've also given myself a black eye and busted my nose. Not to mention the broken knuckles and all the hair i've pulled out in the past. I too have been having suicidal thoughts. I'm working on session 6-anger and I wonder if all i've done is just turn that rage towards myself. There are also a lot of outside stressors like not being able to find a job and being alone most of the time. It's 6:30 am and I've only slept two hours even though I took my klonopin. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm not religious so I don't believe in prayer. I think the scariest thing is that I'm not crying like I was before and I'm beginning to just feel numb. I don't know if that's a good thing.
I'm sorry for sounding so morbid.
I'm sorry for sounding so morbid.
HI again -
Cuttingirl - thanks for the resource and the inspirational comment in "giving what we want to receive" - it's so very true! Speaking for myself at least, I feel like recognizing that other people have these issues is a HUGE step in helping me heal...the not aloneness is such a relief!
To you and Maeggie - there is a light! We all know that sometimes well-meaning people say things that make you feel worse, but take the compassion from thier sentiments. God bless you as we all grow and learn and heal though this!
Blessings,
Dawn
Cuttingirl - thanks for the resource and the inspirational comment in "giving what we want to receive" - it's so very true! Speaking for myself at least, I feel like recognizing that other people have these issues is a HUGE step in helping me heal...the not aloneness is such a relief!
To you and Maeggie - there is a light! We all know that sometimes well-meaning people say things that make you feel worse, but take the compassion from thier sentiments. God bless you as we all grow and learn and heal though this!
Blessings,
Dawn
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Jessie,
Your post touched my heart today. I wish I could tell you something definitive to help you through this, but at least know that there are others out there/here going through or having gone through the same or similar experiences. That support and feeling of not being alone or an oddity has really helped me address some of these issues in my life...I hope it can with you as well.
Second, I don't want to come across as preachy or anything, but I'm just wondering - prayer isn't so much about "being religious", but rather having a relationship. It;s a conversation...and sometimes - when there is nobody else, it's good to talk to somebody who's available 24/7. I mean - when you get that "reached the end of your rope" kind of feeling - what would it hurt to try?
I hope it doesn't offend you, but I'm planning to keep you in my prayers for your recovery from this dark problem that so many of us suffer with.
Take care,
Dawn
Your post touched my heart today. I wish I could tell you something definitive to help you through this, but at least know that there are others out there/here going through or having gone through the same or similar experiences. That support and feeling of not being alone or an oddity has really helped me address some of these issues in my life...I hope it can with you as well.
Second, I don't want to come across as preachy or anything, but I'm just wondering - prayer isn't so much about "being religious", but rather having a relationship. It;s a conversation...and sometimes - when there is nobody else, it's good to talk to somebody who's available 24/7. I mean - when you get that "reached the end of your rope" kind of feeling - what would it hurt to try?
I hope it doesn't offend you, but I'm planning to keep you in my prayers for your recovery from this dark problem that so many of us suffer with.
Take care,
Dawn
The only way to healing from anything is through Christ Jesus.
Lord I pray for all the people on this forum that have feelings that are not of you. I pray that you will deliver those that have been decieved in thinking that you are not there for them. I pray for the salvation of those on this forum that don't believe in the one and only true God. I pray for their salvation. You have healed so many people and you are continuing to do miracles. I pray that you will reach out and touch those that don't believe in you and have allowed satan to decieve them. I pray that you will heal these people and that you will show them that you are the one that did it. Lord Jesus I lift all up in prayer and pray that you will reach out to each one of them and help them realize that life is worth living and they don't want to go out and do anything to cause all the ones around them any pain or them as well. Lord Jesus please keep them safe and protected. Give them comfort, strength, courage, and wisdom. I pray this in your mighty name, Lord Jesus. Amen!
God bless,
Jennifier
Lord I pray for all the people on this forum that have feelings that are not of you. I pray that you will deliver those that have been decieved in thinking that you are not there for them. I pray for the salvation of those on this forum that don't believe in the one and only true God. I pray for their salvation. You have healed so many people and you are continuing to do miracles. I pray that you will reach out and touch those that don't believe in you and have allowed satan to decieve them. I pray that you will heal these people and that you will show them that you are the one that did it. Lord Jesus I lift all up in prayer and pray that you will reach out to each one of them and help them realize that life is worth living and they don't want to go out and do anything to cause all the ones around them any pain or them as well. Lord Jesus please keep them safe and protected. Give them comfort, strength, courage, and wisdom. I pray this in your mighty name, Lord Jesus. Amen!
God bless,
Jennifier
GOOD MORNING,
i always try and read what others write before i reply and sometimes i just write what i feel..last night in the prayer roup that we have at 10 p .m. on wednesday night..thanks to mistybloos boss we help all of you up in PRAYER.even the ones that we did not know that GOD would give you the peace that you desperately need..there is not any of us that was always feeling like we do now. the ones that have suffered so much and the ones that are still suffering. we do not think we are any better then anyone else...
what you said about how you feel and how you do ot want to live or that you have cut yourself or pulled your hair out touches my heart..i even though i have been through hell and back it seems.i will never give in nor will i give up..
if GOD had not bought me out of the pit i would not have been here today talking to you..but HE has brought us together for a reason...and some of you know what the reason is and maybe some of you don"t..my reason for cming here is to help uplift others.
i finished the course in 2004 and, as many of you know that i have told me story too i am in the process of writing my life story..last night at CHURCH.i met a man that had written a book on REVELATION.he asked if i had anyon that would proof read it and get it ready for printing and i said no. he said he would do it.in short i told him i had a longway to go on my story..and he said ok.also at the end of it i will talk ho i have met in hee if it is ok with you..and how you were when we met and how you are now..
so keep me in your PRAYERS..
maeggie,
i was not always able to go places. it has just been recently that GOD has made a way for me to go..
i had not always been a CHRISTIAN..so i am starting over and did in 2005 after i got married .
we celebrate our 3 anniversary the 6th of april.
tommorrow the 14th i turn a young 62
HAD IT NOT BEEN FOR HIS MERCY AND GRACE I WOULD NOT BEE HERE TODAY.
i know that this is long but i feel like GOD wanted me to write this..
i want you to get better all of you..and you ca but, it will requirehard work and you can do it..take care and if you ever need to talk please wrie me doninva23605@yahoo.com and if you ever need someone that WILL PRAY WITH YOU..please feel free to call me anytime of the day or night..i hope this isok to post.
336-736-7196
take care and MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND HEAL YOU IS MY PRAYER AND THE BEST IS YET TO COME..
DON
i always try and read what others write before i reply and sometimes i just write what i feel..last night in the prayer roup that we have at 10 p .m. on wednesday night..thanks to mistybloos boss we help all of you up in PRAYER.even the ones that we did not know that GOD would give you the peace that you desperately need..there is not any of us that was always feeling like we do now. the ones that have suffered so much and the ones that are still suffering. we do not think we are any better then anyone else...
what you said about how you feel and how you do ot want to live or that you have cut yourself or pulled your hair out touches my heart..i even though i have been through hell and back it seems.i will never give in nor will i give up..
if GOD had not bought me out of the pit i would not have been here today talking to you..but HE has brought us together for a reason...and some of you know what the reason is and maybe some of you don"t..my reason for cming here is to help uplift others.
i finished the course in 2004 and, as many of you know that i have told me story too i am in the process of writing my life story..last night at CHURCH.i met a man that had written a book on REVELATION.he asked if i had anyon that would proof read it and get it ready for printing and i said no. he said he would do it.in short i told him i had a longway to go on my story..and he said ok.also at the end of it i will talk ho i have met in hee if it is ok with you..and how you were when we met and how you are now..
so keep me in your PRAYERS..
maeggie,
i was not always able to go places. it has just been recently that GOD has made a way for me to go..
i had not always been a CHRISTIAN..so i am starting over and did in 2005 after i got married .
we celebrate our 3 anniversary the 6th of april.
tommorrow the 14th i turn a young 62
HAD IT NOT BEEN FOR HIS MERCY AND GRACE I WOULD NOT BEE HERE TODAY.i know that this is long but i feel like GOD wanted me to write this..
i want you to get better all of you..and you ca but, it will requirehard work and you can do it..take care and if you ever need to talk please wrie me doninva23605@yahoo.com and if you ever need someone that WILL PRAY WITH YOU..please feel free to call me anytime of the day or night..i hope this isok to post.
336-736-7196
take care and MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND HEAL YOU IS MY PRAYER AND THE BEST IS YET TO COME..
DON
I'm so very sorry to hear about what you all are going through. Jesse, you didn't mention if you were on medication, but I hope you consider it if you are not. It sounds like you are pretty deep in the midst of depression and you don't have to live like that. Thankfully, I never got to the point of hurting myself or serious suicidal thinking, but getting on medication really helped to get out of that black hole of depression. I'm sending out positive thoughts to all of you that are hurting right now. This forum is amazing in how much it helps just knowing that there are others that share your feelings and experiences, will not judge, will offer support,and really care about what your well-being...it's a poweful thing. That being said, I hope you all find the peace that you seek and please do not let those suicidal thoughts take over. You are all strong even if you do not know it. Once you are in a better place, you will be able to think clearly and do whatever it takes to get healthy. In the meantime, hang on and know that you have the support and caring of everyone on this site!!
Jesse, I saw your early morning post and because you haven't been back on I pray you are sleeping. I know you said you don't believe in prayer but after all the prayers from wonderful people on here go out to you, I hope you change your mind. I don't know where I'd be without God in my life. Without so many prayers for me. I struggled with that *s* thoughts and started to attempt it when at age l9 the phone would not stop ringing as I had all the pills in my hand. I finally answered it. My aunt was on the line and said "what were YOU doing"? Wow, I totally broke down. Her prayers went out for me. I am saved and spared because of her prayers. Like I said I cannot say enough about prayer. Don has offered to pray or talk with you. He's freely posted his number for you. Take him up on it. Make sure you do the lessons. You've bought the program. I believe God is working in your life even that you bought or someone bought the program for you. Do not give up on yourself. Do not hurt yourself.Get the help you need and don't be afraid of medication. Keep coming here. I hope you write back soon. Also the very important 24hr. prayer toll free number is posted in the spiritual section forum. I called it but see I don't have it here to write now or I would. You can look it up. Go in peace Jesse.