First day on new med and trying to calm down

MC Grace · Post by **MC Grace** » Thu Jan 24, 2008 4:14 pm

Faith!

It's so good to see you on here. I just started getting on again about a month ago--and I hadn't seen ya (missed ya).

Anyways, I think that you might just be a little extra angry about meds (and maybe about the side effects and even about having to take them at all). I think you should try to do an excercise or 2 (or 3) that help you to think positively, get calm, and trust yourself.

You said your prayer--now, let go and let God. Easier said than done, I know.

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Fri Jan 25, 2008 1:59 pm

I don't know. . . I don't feel particularly angry. Frightened, maybe. Meds scare me, to be honest. I just don't like letting them do their thing. And I know they help a lot of people. My hubby is on antidepressants and they have helped him a bunch. But, I have a hard time getting past the side effects.

I took a Xanax the other night and I'm feeling much better since then so I'll see how I do in the coming weeks. I've had one bottle of Xanax for almost 2 years so I know I won't get addicted.

Tigs · Post by **Tigs** » Fri Jan 25, 2008 3:56 pm

hi
i keep reading this post and i "feel your pain" i wish i could deal better with the meds thing too. i take xanax as needed cuz it doesnt make me feel wierd. i know my fear stems from feeling out of control.i know from people i have talked to that the side-effects can be an issue for some people. but i think i cause some effects from my fearful thinking. its a very confusing and frustrating topic for me. i want to be able to do this with out meds. but there are those days where im ready to pick up the phone and yell to my dr. GIVE ME SOMETHING! I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE! its almost like i will hit an emotional bottom and i dont believe anything, not even God can get me through it. and funnily enough thats when i start to pick up the telephone to talk to someone or log in here for support and suddenly i see a little spark of hope again. I dont know what the answer is. im definately not against meds. i wish i could find "the magic one". for me personally i havent been successful yet so i look for alternatives like this program and the support from people here, i take x-tra vitamins, im going to try and get better at exercising and the relaxation thing. with 2 kids i suppose i put myself at the bottom of the list. i think the more i put into this program the more i will get out of it. just please dont beat yourself up. at least you have been willing to try the meds. that shows courage. what is that saying?...."Courage is fear thats said its prayers" well its time to pray. ask for guidance. He will send it your way, and we are all her for you.

God Bless
Tigs

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 3:53 am

Thanks. I had a panic attack last night and I had my kids and a my daughter's friend over. I told myself. . . just let it come, and you'll get it over with. Any scary thoughts that came up, I told myself "most of the thoughts that come up during a panic attack aren't true, so just think about something else until the panic goes away and then I can make decisions, etc."

It did go away but then I woke up at 4am with another panic attack. Which, by the way, is not fair cuz I was trying to sleep!! LOL

I got up and took a Xanax and it took a couple hours to get back to sleep but I'm feeling better this morning.

I talked to my husband about trying the Lexapro again and he doesn't think I need it. He feels the Xanax will do everything I need. Maybe he's right. Maybe I'll just try that for a couple weeks and as I calm my nerves as needed I can get out of the cycle.

He's out of work right now and it's scary to me. I really don't like to be the only breadwinner in the family. It makes me feel too much pressure!

I'm going to work with him today on his resume.

MC Grace · Post by **MC Grace** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 8:09 am

Faith, sweetness, I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time. Ugh, unemployment is horrid.

But I am going to speak with you frankly--tough love. That's what you've given me and so many of us.

You are a women of faith. You have been a woman who has surrendered the events of her life to a higher power.

That type of faith cannot be escaped. And it's a good thing--because plugging into that lifeline is what is going to help you make the best decisions during this time.

Try not to be "logical". What I mean is the most logical/wisest thing is to not overthink it.

You know the skills -- but a refresher is in order. Is there a lesson that's been a breakthrough lesson? Lesson 3 is always good.

keep writing. listen to a sermon on tscnyc.org.

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Sat Jan 26, 2008 8:42 am

Hey there lady!! Thanks so much for the link. I'm so glad that I'm employed and at my job I can plug in headphones and listen to music or the show from <A HREF="http://www.newlife.com" TARGET=_blank>New Life</A> or sometimes I go to <A HREF="http://www.oneplace.com" TARGET=_blank>OnePlace</A> and listen to sermons. I haven't heard of tcsnyc.org yet.

I read my Bible in the morning, I listen to either Bible on CD or sermons or Christian music in the car. . . so I'm trying to keep plugged in. Thanks for the reminder. I need it! Actually I just got back on track with the Bible a few weeks ago. I was getting a little angry at the world for all that we've been through last year. I'm hoping 2008 will get better!

I'm writing my husband's resume for him right now. It is frustrating me because I think he should do it himself, but we need to get him working.

This is SO MUCH the lesson I know God is trying to teach me right now. To TRUST HIM and to even TRUST my hubby but I keep on slipping back to doing it for him or nagging. However sometimes they need a little boost, right? haha

MC Grace · Post by **MC Grace** » Tue Jan 29, 2008 6:52 am

For anyone who's interested--Chris and I thought it would be a good idea to continue this discussion in the Spirituality Forum, too. So, I'll start it under "Trying to Calm Down". Have a great day everyone!