As for the Suicide Group, there are always newcomers. But we go to help comfort those that grieve and also help ourselves by being with understanding people. There's always a first person to experience it and then others follow.
I have quite a bit in common with DH, we have the same values and belief system, just different temperaments and upbringing. He is close to the oldest in his family and I'm at the tail end. I have a college degree and he has worked for his family's business and wanted to start his own or buy one.
We are both practical and disciplined in some areas, but due to our genetic make up and upbringing, we have different skills and talents. He is an introvert and I'm an extrovert, sometimes these qualities mesh and other times they can cause friction.
Mike--If my husband were to die--I would be taken care of by Life Insurance and possibly a stipend or something like that from our business. I've talked to DH about it, and I personally don't think the monthly salary is enough. Since things cost more these days.
Otherwise, I do have my BS degree, and right now my volunteering activities uses skills I could get a job with if I needed too. But my real love would be to do as I had planned last spring and that was to grow starter plants to sell. I still have a hoop house and thousands of pots, etc. It has been my family (sons and DH) that are discouraging me from pursuing this endeavor. Partly because I need their help to set up the hoop house and get water to it and DS (eldest) has to move his truck beds, parts and pieces that are littered in my backyard taking up the space for my hoop house.
My son that lives at home will eventually leave because he is almost 20, but he is finishing college right now and works for us. All my children live close by.
I definitely want to create within myself things I need that will support me in difficult conditions.
I'm doing that now by being on here, my volunteer work, working on a support system of friends locally, staying in contact with my family of origin, keeping active in my faith.
Now things to work on is decluttering my bedroom & computer desk as a beginning.
Go to the health club to get strong by swimming, using the treadmill and weight training.
Take classes there to build up social contacts.
I definitely want a brighter future. I also know that I get overwhelmed if I think of too many things to do at one time.
I did begin weaning off my 15mgs of Remeron, tonight will be my 2nd night without it. So I'm focusing on the withdrawal hour by hour for right now. Making sure I eat properly, meaning protein meals and very little sugar and salt. I could tell a difference when I had a small ice cream cone, but suspecting a change in my body system when I ate it.
Thanks--- Paislee
