Spousel Support

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Hi everyone. I was so happy to find the topic of spousel support. Just today I told my husband that I was starting this program. I told him that there was a dvd that was meant for spouses and family members so he could start to understnad what I am dealing with. There was no response. I have tried to talk to him about what I am going through and that, in and of itself is stressful. When I am upset he tells me to get my medication adjusted. I have trouble with driving and when we got the credit card statement one month it was a lot more than normal. That is because I avoid highways and bridges. He told me that I need to get over it because our gas bill should not be that much. There was a time a few months back when I had a bad panic attack. It took everything out of me. When he got home from work he wanted to go to Lowe's and get some stuff for the house that we were building. I told him that I had a bad panic attack a couple of days earlier and I told him I didn't know if I could even go inside of Lowe's. He just shrugged it off and said to or son, 'come on let's go.' He was going to leave me there, feeling aweful. All I needed was for him to say that he would help me get through this one little trip. And he didn't. So now on top of the anxiety I already deal with, I have this incredible anxiety everytime my husband comes home. He is a truck driver so that is mainly on the weekends. Now we are moved into our new house and I feel like I can't truly enjoy being here because I worry everytime he comes home. I think about what he might say to me this weekend to make me feel worse than I already do. It's so depressing to live this way. And I can not believe that as my husband he will not support me. It really makes me sad.

Any advice that you can give me would be greatly appreciated. I really don't know what my next move is. I need help. And I need someone to care.