Back after 3 years anxiety-free

[patience99]

Hi crystal, so glad that u had a pretty good enjoyable weekend. For me having kids myself seems to be like therapy to me because it helps me get my mind out of myself sometimes and on my children and how much I cherish them. I also had a very relaxaing weekend. I had some family in town from the twin cities and i took them out on our boat the last 2 days. I have been going thru my little growth spurt for about 3 months but my moments of anxiety dont last near as long and I am not having near as many moments or heightened levels of anxiety. Looking back it just seems like it takes a little bit of time to desensitize or devalue some of those old symptoms and irrational thoughts. I still have some moments when i become a little hypervigilant or caught up in some of those old automatic,negative,irrational thoughts but then I remember my self talk and stop buying in to those cognitive distortions. We are all on the same path at our own speeds. And that is the path to peace so I try to slow down and just enjoy the journey because all of our life really is is just the moments we have and there will never be another july 1, 2012 ever again. Take care count your blessings! Jeremy

[Asamsyd]

Ok so the fast few dayas were pretty great aktogether. Hardly any anxiety at all, if any at all. Been great. Then I wake up this orning and am instantly anxious bc I didnt sleep well and my bf is sick. soI let that ruin my whole entire day, being anxious and having obsessive thoughts. Took a nap, didnt work like I had hoped. Gonna have to get some good sleep at some point. Some today is kinda a bummed out type of day for me. But I gotta remember, 1 step forward, 2 steps back.

[Asamsyd]

Its been 8 days since I last posted. Lets see, I have been working the program, working my classes in college and just plain working my job. Im finally able to sleep again and although I feel a lot better, I still get the thoughts of obsessiveness and scary things. Almost like its not normal to feel good...Make sense?? Im on a regular rourine wiht my meds again and they seem to help a lot although I am tired a lot now. But thats ok with me.

Sometimes we need to learn to just let go. Last night I watched a funny movie before bed. I dont think I have laughed that much in a long time!! It definetley does makes you feel good.

Keep pluggin away and always remember the good things.

[patience99]

Hi crystal glad to hear u are doing pretty good. I have used medication before to to get thru a growth spurt and I would use to beat myself up for taking medicine but when I have had to before I just view it as a tool to help me regain my confidence and self esteem and that is all. I still have some moments of obsessive thinking about my own anxiety and symptoms but on the whole i have been getting a lot better. It seems like it just takes patience and have to have faith in the process. It really helps for me to just take one day at a time. Slowly but surely we are on our way to getting to where we want to go and that is peace of mind. God bless Jeremy

[Asamsyd]

Ok so its been another 6 days since I posted...Lets see:

Today started off as a bad day for me. Again. All because I didnt sleep well againlast night and have been anticipating my final exams for school. Got myself all worked up this morning and had to have a support friend talk me down...I was really beating myself up abput it. How can I have so many good days and go out and barely think of anxiety and then bam. a bad day. I just dont understand it at all. Granted Iknow Im doing good and Im allowed to have bad days, but it just sucks... and to top it off its like i cant cry either...?? I want to cry, I feel like I need to cry but for some reason I just cant.

I would take all of the encouragement I can find....and thank you to all of you for following on my journey thru this growth spurt. And thank you Jeremy, for Coach Chris who is calling me this evevning.


God bless you all today and always,
Crystal