life is good - and it's a long post!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Sun Nov 29, 2009 11:35 am

Karmaberry

You have every right to post this in the triumphs section !

For me, negative people and my job go hand in hand. I'm grateful to have a job, but I'm always second guessing and feeling like I'm not good enough. I always feel like I'm going to get fired tomorrow. Sundays are the roughest day for me. It's time for me to think and rethink things about the job.

Like you said, it's a job, not my life. I have such a tough time remembering that.

Sorry you are going through this, but at the same time I'm glad I'm not floating in that boat alone.

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Sun Nov 29, 2009 4:51 pm

we are SO on the same page. we could be cloned LOL i used to not sleep sunday nights just dreading going back to work. now i sleep - not perfectly - but so much better!

worrying about work is one of the most unfun things ever. always watching your back and waiting for the worst - well it just flat out sucks like a straw!

i took monday and tuesday off last week so i'd have a full week at home. i made myself a nervous wreck - practically, pretty much wasted the entire monday wondering, worrying about taking that day. what did i gain? well, no fun - that's a given.

tomorrow is the start of a new week and a new attitude for me at work. can i do it? yes. will it be hard? you bet your boots LOL but i will overcome this fear and dread.

you work hard on it too, okay? we'll report back to each other on our great achievements!!!!

karma

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Mon Nov 30, 2009 10:30 am

This morning I made a conscious effort to take things slower. I actually got out of bed when the alarm went off ! I had time to do what I wanted this morning before I went to work. I had a good breakfast, went on the net for a bit, grabbed my lunch out of the fridge and headed off to work. As I was driving to work, I made sure that my breathing was good. I decided last night that the attitude I was going to take for work was "If you don't like me, replace me". I didn't say it out loud of course, but I sure thought it ! I'm a good worker and I take pride in my work. I can't help it if the higher ups can't get their stuff together ! I went into work, said good morning to everyone and then started my work. My boss came up to me with his attitude. I looked over at him, smiled, and said "good morning" in a real cheery voice ! I wasn't thinking "good morning" of course, but that's what came out of my mouth. I did my best to stay in a good mood and today it worked. How about you ?

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Mon Nov 30, 2009 11:48 am

in the true definition of funny-sad, i set my alarm for pm NOT am LOL i woke up around 7:15 and an electric jolt went through me. i can't believe i even woke up!!! i flew around like a maniac and managed to get to work only 15 mintues late. i didn't have time to eat anything or fix my hair. you can't begin to imagine how fast i was moving - too funny.

when i got to work, a lady in the parking lot was trying to get a boxed christmas tree out of her trunk - it was wedged in. of course, i stopped to help. i can't walk past someone who needs help. and i was right on target - 15 minutes late.

my day was good. i kept myself quiet and on task. i finally got the big clue this summer regarding the 2 coworkers who are so blasted hateful. now when they talk to me about anything - whether work related or personal - i never make eye contact. throw in that i'm very noncommital in whatever they say and it makes my life so much easier at work.

a friend told me a long time ago regarding the negativity in my work place to reinvent myself. somehow along the way, i forgot that very sage advice. today was the beginning of the ultimate reinvention!

it sounds like me and you are on a very good, very positive path.

we rock!!!!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Mon Nov 30, 2009 12:44 pm

Let's hope you don't turn obsessive compulsive now ! LOL Checking your alarm 100 times throughout the night means you won't get sleep ! Actually I've done that and yes I know that feeling of impending doom ! LOL Set your alarm for A.M. this time. LOL

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Mon Nov 30, 2009 1:08 pm

oh the reset has already been done!!! i thought the sound was off UNTIL it went off at 6:15 this afternoon.

here's the thing. if i had been dreadfully late (that's me being awfully british), it would NOT have been the worst thing in the galaxy. i would either have taken a couple of personal hours or made the time up through my lunch hour or staying late here and there over the week. things happen. people oversleep. it's normal. and the department director would not have taken me that much to task - if at all. i just want to establish myself as very well grounded - or something. it's that reinvention think i'm going for LOL

but i promise you this - it was a good day!

i just checked the alarm again. it's just right - and the volume is turned up so high i'll wake up ON the ceiling in the morning LOL i'm not checking it again - really!

i hope you're tomorrow is practically perfect!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Tue Dec 01, 2009 11:44 am

So, was it nice not having a stress filled morning this time ?!?!?!? LOL

This "I don't care" attitude is really working for me. I do my work and I'm proud of my work. I don't care what anyone else thinks ! The only people with comments anyway are ones that couldn't do my job. My boss still has comments too, but today they were all positive ! I think that he's learning to back off. There's no need to have someone on the rampage every second of the day.

Remember..... A.M. not P.M. ! LOL

How was today for you ?

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Tue Dec 01, 2009 1:20 pm

well, it appears i'm always going to be a few minutes late for work. today i got up at 6:45 - and - oh well - it is what it is - 10 minutes late. i had time but just can't/won't/don't make it out the door. when i have the time, i just don't move fast enough. when i don't have the time, i'm a maniac racing around.

today i was slowed down by looking for my black jacket - i KNOW it's here somewhere. i ironed it then promptly misplaced it. the brown jacket i put on - well when i got to the car, it just did not work with what i was wearing. i HAD to come back in the house and get another jacket. LOL

i'm making a choice to just not worry about it. one day - in a galaxy far, far away - i'll be there at 8:00. and truthfully, i just don't think anyone cares.

i had a great day. again, i kept on task. i steered clear of the 2 who don't like me. i was a stellar employee LOL i do have many people i so enjoy seeing and interacting with at work. they like me right back too. and most importantly, i like me! if you're wondering, in the section i work in there are about 25 people - maybe more, i lost count. it's a big place and on the other 2 floors i appear to have a lot of people i interact with in a positive manner. i sound like i really have issues with people liking me but i don't. i just don't want it thought i'm a horrible person to be around LOL

so together we're making positive steps forward in our attitudes regarding work. good for us!

what you said about you liking your work and doing a good job - honey, we could be cloned. i'm great at my job.

who knows, maybe i'll only be late by 5 minutes tomorrow!!!!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Wed Dec 02, 2009 2:19 pm

This morning, I made a mistake. I woke up before the alarm went off. I didn't know what time it was. The mistake was that I looked at the clock. My alarm goes off at 5:45am. When I looked at the clock it was 4:20. Do you think I could get back to sleep ? NO. I woke up tired this morning. I didn't hit the "snooze bar" at all. I got up right at 5:45. I was groggy, and out of it. I fought my way to the shower, I fought my way to eat something, and I fought my way to work ! By the time I got to work I really wanted to go back to bed. LOL Around 8:00 I started to wake up. It ended up being a good day at work. My new attitude is really working ! LOL

There are a couple of people I work with that I steer clear of too. Only when I need to do I talk to them. The rest of the people are great.
Just because you choose to avoid certain people doesn't make you horrible. It makes you smart ! LOL

Just make sure to get everything ready the night before. Even if it means lining everything up by the door in the order that you use them !

Here's to a good day tomorrow ! Cheers !

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Wed Dec 02, 2009 3:08 pm

again, 10 minutes late - a pattern easier to live with than fight. i think people expect me to be in at 8:10. it's probably in writing somewhere LOL it was raining cats and dogs here this morning. both umbrellas were in the car - hence, a plastic bag over my head so i wouldn't have the drowned rat look when i did "arrive."

it was a good day. i bought my boss a small pre-lit christmas tree that sits in an urn. it's as sweet as it can be. i emailed my coworkers that i thought it would be a fun idea for everyone to bring an ornament for the tree. when asked by a "friendly" coworker if i wanted any chip-in money, my answer was nope. i do what i want, when i want. i wouldn't have bought it if it wasn't from my heart.

i did do what you said but i did it last night! i put out the clothes i was going to wear, got up ON TIME, and didn't have to race through the house looking for this and that. it didn't matter that i still forgot my tennis shoes because there was no way to walk in today's weather! that's something i've started doing on my lunch hour. it gives me the energy and endurance to survive the afternoon.

this "reinventing of me" is working to my advantage. i think - hope - to your advantage too!