Self Talk

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Wed Nov 10, 2010 4:12 pm

Nerveball, I can tell that I'm not reacting so
much to family members as well since I've been on this website and reading my free email lessons. Still waiting for the CDs to come, but definitely doing so much better then before I came here to meet everyone else.

nerveball · Post by **nerveball** » Thu Nov 11, 2010 1:35 pm

Hi I didn't know I could catch up with the same people from the chat room on here. Silly me. Anyway thanks for responding, it does me so much good. Like for instance today. I have a habit of taking on everyone elses problems as well as my own, as if mines aren't enough. My gas and electric is about to be cut off along with my cable and then my daughter comes to me and says she needs $600.00 or her car is going to get repossessed. Of course I don't have it but then I get all worked up about if she doesn't have a car then she can't go to work and if they take it then she still would have to pay for it anyway. Then I think - how am I going to get the money. Not only am I an alcoholic [recovering] but I am also addicted to gambling to. I just havn't done it in awhile because I promised God that I would stop and trust Him. Well I did it again. I already didn't have enough money, now I have even less. Will I ever learn? Usually at this point I am beating myself up something terrible and calling me every stupid name in the book. But I am calm. I told myself ok you did it again but at least this time you stopped yourself before you spent all of the money. Also you did apologize to God and really meant it and told Him that you would try harder from now on. Also I'm not stupid and dumb because I did do it for a valid reason it just was not the right choice to make to solve the problem. So I'll learn from it. If I was stupid and dumb then I wouldn't see that. When I got home and checked out how much money I had left I realized that yes I owe all of this stuff but I don't have to pay it all at once. Pay what I need to pay on each one to keep it going and then use the little I have left to do things like eat and have carfare for work until the next pay. I don't think I'm cured but at least I can live peacefully until the next time if there is one, and then I can deal with that if it comes. As for my daughter, she will have to figure her way out of her own mess. It's a struggle for me to stay out of it but I'll have to work on it perhaps even one hour at a time until it gets better for me. Being able to talk about it helps me a lot. I hope it helps somebody else too.

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Thu Nov 11, 2010 4:09 pm

Hi Nerve ball, I'm sorry about your DD having a financial problem. Children can be such a worry. I'm glad that you know you will be okay, even though you slipped into a bit of gambling. It is good to take it like you say, 1 hour at a time right now. Sometimes I have to do 5 minutes.

Right now my neck is hurting and I'm waiting to see if just the two Advil is going to work. I worked on clearing my deck of leaves accumulated and letting go of other stuff that I don't need to keep, but do.
And then had to see what has been damaged due to rain or snow. It was a bit hard to see how certain items are now damaged. But freeing when I tossed it into the garbage can.

Hope you have a good day tomorrow!

nerveball · Post by **nerveball** » Fri Nov 12, 2010 4:56 pm

Paisleegreen after the initial shock doesn't it feel'freeing' and like you've accomplished something when you finally do something that you knew you needed to but just felt that you couldn't? I guess letting go o0f things makes you feel like the sentimental value will be lost forever but it's not. It's forever in your heart whether you see the object again or not. Precious memories are just that. They don't fade away. Stay strong.

creamcheesepuff · Post by **creamcheesepuff** » Fri Nov 12, 2010 5:55 pm

I do intense self talking....I find it most refreshing when its positive and reinforceing. I say to myself, I dont deserve to beat up on ME, I am a great person, I do great things, I work hard and I Know it, I pat myself on the back when I am sliding down that slippery slope. We are our own worst enemies and if we are beating the crap out of ourselves, who can depend on us, who can look up to us, we deserve the BEST TREATMENT WE CAN GIVE OURSELVES. Give yourself a complement today and then throw one at someone else......IT WILL FEEL SO GOOD.

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Sat Nov 13, 2010 6:53 am

Nerveball, You're right, it does feel better. I just wish it wasn't so hard to do though.

Creamscheese, you're right as well, we need to give ourselves good self talk. You Go Girl!

creamcheese · Post by **creamcheese** » Mon Nov 15, 2010 9:22 am

I wholeheartedly agree with nerveball, I am leaving my childhood home after 54 years of living in this area. I feel disconnected, unnerved, and have strange feelings. I know its anxiety and some depression. I cannot and will not suppress this,,,its quite normal, although I throw in some good feelings and good people to keep my spirits up. And yes, its so True....the memories will always be in your heart. Things are changing all the time in this world and we cannot stop it. We just have to learn to adapt and to flow when things get out of joint, upside down or just need some tender loving care.

nerveball · Post by **nerveball** » Mon Nov 15, 2010 2:26 pm

Hi. I had a good day and a yukki day and then a good day and then a yukki day. This is still the same day. I guess I'm getting better though because not too many days ago I would have just said I had a bad day and given up on it before the morning was even over with. I didnt do some things the way I knew I should have and I started to beat up on myself again. But I listened to that session 3 tape so many times that it started to play in my head every time I said something negative about myself. I didn't make it positive every time but I did tell myself to stop each time I got started. I guess that's an improvement. Anyway I felt so good when I got up this morning so I don't want to go to bed feeling the opposite so life is great, I had a good day, I made some mistakes but I know what they are and I'll learn from them. It was funny today because I went to work all happy and positive and everybody was like what got into you. Inside I was saying dag was I that bad. It felt good to be happy and up beat though. I'll try it more often. Oh yeah, I didn't have any pain today. Hmmmmm.

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Sat Nov 20, 2010 10:14 am

Yippee! You didn't have any pain today. That's super! I go my CDs a yesterday, I think.

So I've listened to the intro or Foreward and then to CD 2 and CD 3 on negative self talk. That was very enlightening, it gave more clarification on what Negative Self talk can be. So I know even more how to work on that. Hope you are doing even better Nerveball and Cream Cheese happy moving day!

Paislee

nerveball · Post by **nerveball** » Sun Nov 21, 2010 2:42 pm

hi, I missed you all. Nobody's talking much these days. I'm having my ups and downs but more ups lately. I'm up to session 3. It's helping some but I still get discouraged sometimes cause I can't change all of the bad stuff all at once. How are you all doing. Paiseleegreen don't get too impatient and move too fast. I guess you say look who's talking.