I bought a book about OCD (then quickly realized it wasn't exactly me) and even in that book it suggests playing a video game for a distraction.
Doing a quick informal survey of my friends, I have tons of friends that play little games at night to unwind.
So I think the root of the problem is not the game. I think the root of the problem was me enjoying the game and then suddenly becoming aware that I spent too much time a couple nights playing it and had a dream about it. Well, I think even that is somewhat normal, at least from some of the stories on the PackRat message board.
Then I came here and asked an opinion and it was suggested to just throw the game away and find something more constructive to do with my time. However, I think in the way I phrased it, I was describing playing it "all hours" making it sound like I was doing nothing else but that.
Anyway, so I stopped playing it for a couple days and then realized I was still doing stuff "in my head" like looking stuff up online, reading books about my "problem" etc.
The root of the problem was I was feeling a lot of anxiety and was trying to escape it.
I have always had a fear of getting addicted to things, which is why I got freaked out when I was taking Xanax several months ago.
Another thing that made this worse is one night I fell asleep and a show came on the TV that my husband was watching about these 3 boys that got hooked on heroin and describing all these horrible things that happened to them. I was half asleep hearing all this. I finally reached over and turned off the show. But some of what I heard has been sort of replaying in my head.
Also, my husband, trying to be funny. . .when I got up one night to go in the other room while playing a game, quickly went in and blocked Facebook. So then I was asking him "do you not want me to play the game?" And it turned into a big deal, which he insists that he was just joking around about. So then I had that question in my mind along with my own. I was thinking. . .it's just a stupid game, if it's bothering him I won't play it. . .then thinking. . . I should be able to do what I want. . .and on and on.
Overall, I still don't know the right way to go with all this. I just know that for some reason I've got my thoughts sort of tangled up and the more I try to decide what to do about it all, the more frustrated I get.
I'm sure that's never happend to any of you, right?
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