Severe Bout Of Depression Lingering ON And On

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 7:28 am

Hi Monty's Mom,
Like everyone else has said, it will get better! you've been through tough times before and YOU WILL AGAIN!!!!!You know I've heard that tears are cathartic and for me, I think that is definitely the case. Maybe if you can stop worrying about crying and just let the tears come, you will begin to feel better. I think I've cried what seems like an ocean of tears in the last 2 years- day and night, day after day. though I often get migraines with my bouts, I do wear myself out and I can sleep for a while afterwards. and I am not crying nearly as much as I used to so maybe all those tears I shed did release a lot of the pain that I was holding inside. And just maybe, that will be true for you, as well!! II'm wondering what thoughts are going through your mind right now that might be precipitating your tears. I know you feel isolated and I know how that feels too and I don't drive so I'm stuck here all day but I am a country girl and we as a family, never went anywhere when I was growing up so I am used to being isolated and alone. I have a few friends I talk to on the phone and now everyone here that I can talk to whenever I want or need to and that helps a lot!
Now as for those fur kids of yours, I know you are not neglecting them and believe this -God sent you those babies to help you as much as you help them. Take comfort in them and cry in their fur as much as you need to.they are there for you are for them!
If you feel like talking,you can pm me or e mail me @ galedash55@verizon.net. I'm always willing to listen and I do care about you and want you to feel better. I am going out to walk my dogs shortly but I'll check back here when I get back. Hang in there and God bless!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 7:44 am

I just read back that post after I already sent it to you, Monty's MOM and I realize my first sentence didn't come out as I meant it to. What I MEANT to say was that you have beenthrough difficult times before and you will come through them again,stronger than ever! It's true that there will always be rough times throughout our lives but that's the neat thing about this program- we are going to be better prepared to handle those times! We , in a way have an advantage over the general public because we are gaining tools and methods to cope better with these tough timesthrough our program not to mention all the friends we've gained who understand us like no one else can.
Forgive me for my mistake in my last post. Take care and I'll talk to you a little later.
Gale

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 7:54 am

((((((((((Monty's Mom)))))))))) I am so sorry life's struggles and frustrations have you do down and sad. I am also fighting depression again due to missing my Mom, my only Sister, my Mother-in-Law, and several other loved ones who have passed on. This time of year is so hard for me because my Mom's and Sisters birthday was in December. My hubby and I are both disabled so money is tight for us to. We both need so many things but just can't afford it right now. Please know you are not alone and that we are here for you and for each other to lean on. I am sending you a nice warm bear hug and hope that soon you will be smiling again.

God bless,
Susan

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 2:14 pm

Hi Monty's Mom, I promised I'd check back in with you and as promised, here I am! I hope that you are resting, trying to be in the moment and trying to enjoy your husband's company and of course those fur kids. I was thinking about you while I was out walking my dogs and I remembered the words to a couple of songs that always meant a lot to me that I believe are words to live by for all of us. One song was by Dan Fogelberg-remember he recorded tha beautiful song RUN FOR THE ROSES that they play at the Kentucky Derby each year? Anyway the song 's words and melody that came to me today was called A PART OF THE PLAN, I think and the words I remember are "love when you can, cry when you have to be who you must, that"s a part of THE PLAN". Those lyrics and thatmelody cometo me often and I do find them helpful and soothing.The other one was by REO Speedwagon and the words I remember best are, "live every moment, love every day, cause if you don't you might just throw your love away". Don't know if you remember either of them but i thought maybe you just might.
Remember we're all here for you and you are going to make it through this. Sending you big hugs and lots of love...........Gale

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 2:58 pm

Hello everyone, I too am going through a very difficult time. It seems like every time the seasons change I fall into a bout of depression. I worry way too much about what others think about me, and how well I appear to be doing. I'm currently in my fourth year of study at University and still playing with the same fears I entertained in first year. I can't even do an assignment without freaking out and convincing myself that i'm going to fail. I always tell myself that I'm not good enough and that everyone else is multiple steps ahead of me. I'm glad to be back on the program again, I never finished it last year, I stopped at session 5 and gave in to the anxiety and depression. I just recently started the program again and I'm currently seeing a therapist, I hope that this will give me the motivation to do my best with the program and continually work towards helping myself. I wish you all God's blessing.

kind regards,

Benjamin Olthod

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Nov 10, 2008 3:20 pm

Monty’smom,
Don’t you ever give up! You have the largest family right here on this site that will be there for you when ever you need to vent or just need to talk to some one. You also have my e-mail address & can talk to me about anything & everything. Sometimes all a person needs is a friend to talk to so talk to me young lady, talk to me. Everyone here likes to read your post because you know a lot of things so don’t stop posting.
Take Care,
Triple “L”

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 7:11 am

Hello To All Of You Caring Friends, THANKYOU SO MUCH!!!!! You have all been so wonderfull and I appreciate each and everyone of you with all my heart. I read your posts again today and all the kindness you showed really means more than you know.

I now know the reason for my severe depression..it's still with me but just knowing why I have been so badly depressed is a help in dealing with it. We had started on a stop smoking drug last week called Chantrix and were not informed it can cause suicidal thoughts and in fact has caused people to commit suicide. I saw a commercial on tv yesterday from a law firm asking people to call in if they or anyone they new had attempted or in fact commited suicide while taking this drug. Although I'm still very depressed I take comfort in knowing why this all happened and stopped the drug yesterday. I'm praying the side affects will stop within a few days and I will return to being myself..a person who was doing better after many years of suffering with deression. I just could not figure out why I was sooooo deep in a dark hole again and never thought it was due to these pills as we were never told about that side affect, many others but not depression. I am never taking any more new drugs...they push them out too quickly it seems and people suffer the bad affects that the doctors fail to tell you about. I have always been very sensitive to meds and this was definately the worst med for me in years. I just want my life and sanity back again. I am drinking water with lemon to try and flush out my body and rid it of this drug asap. Anyways I'm just recovering as best I can right now and know I will feel better soon.

I'm sending out prayers and hugs to everyone.
THANKYOU AGAIN SO VERY MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!
God Bless You ALL,
montysmom

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 8:14 am

Wow! That's one of the many reasons I don't do pills. If I absolutely have to, antibiotics is okay. I am glad you saw that warning announcement and got off of this drug. I also like your water with lemon cure. That is a good remedy. So glad to see you back, and sounding better today!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 8:27 am

Hi Dear Pecos and thankyou!!
It's so great to want to be online and knowing I will be okay again, soon!

it's great to see you back on the forums again. I missed your posts during your vacation. You are a very caring and wise Lady and help so many feel better with each post.

God Bless You My Friend..

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 8:45 am

You know, sometimes I think the only one I am making feel better when I sign on here is myself

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Just joking. It is a wonderful place to visit, even after we graduate. I am working the entire program again now, for the reinforcement, which I do need. I will not go back to that dreary dark forest of gloom and sadness where I lived when I began here last June.
Don't give up.