Sexual Obsessions..anyone else?

~Noelle~ · Post by **~Noelle~** » Mon Jun 18, 2007 12:24 pm

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~Noelle~ · Post by **~Noelle~** » Mon Jul 23, 2007 1:32 pm

Thanks for letting me know you are here jimidharma. It is nice to know i am not alone in this. I'd definitely like to chat some time

Thrandioso · Post by **Thrandioso** » Fri Aug 10, 2007 6:38 am

yeah I'm in this cycle.. what makes it worse is that I'm not very good with people, so at work it just manifests (anxiety, ocd) plus not having confidence just makes it above all the most painful

:edit: after reading all this, it sounds like all of this is just some sort of mockery to me...Its really stupid, but apart of me says all of you are lying...but I really know that its not. but it really fits in my "paranoid" puzzle (what if?)I don't know why I had to put this out there but here it is.

Chief Crazy Horse · Post by **Chief Crazy Horse** » Thu Aug 30, 2007 11:00 pm

My mind is healing as I go through this program, it's so hard to state your thoughts and feelings being afraid of what people may think! I'm in session 4 soon session 5 and I keep close with the Lord who has ALWAYS been there for me. My thoughts were not that I would do anything, but rather I felt extremely sensitive and uncomfortable around anyone or anything. It's hard to state how you really feel without being misconstrued or unfairly judged. One must get rid of ALL the things deep down inside to be ready for healing and ready to move on!

Chow

Stagerlee · Post by **Stagerlee** » Fri Aug 31, 2007 5:43 am

all you got to do is tell joe to get out of franks office,lol,,,,

KayJ · Post by **KayJ** » Fri Aug 31, 2007 6:54 am

I used to be plagued with those same exact obsessions. That was one of the worst times in my life (15 years ago). I would get so worked up and depressed that I wanted to die. I can honestly look back now and not believe I used to have those thoughts. I never could have been convinced back then that I was only having obsessive thinking (I would have thought everyone was lying to me!) I would have been so grateful to have a site like this back then. Also, to know that even one other person in the world had such thoughts would have been comforting. So, please trust me when I say that you are ONLY having obsessive thoughts. If you really believed/wanted any of these things to come true you would feel happy when thinking such thoughts, not distressed. Hang in there.

Chief Crazy Horse · Post by **Chief Crazy Horse** » Fri Aug 31, 2007 10:59 am

KayJ and Stagerlee, you're the best! :p I guess I always overated stress. A great caring person, loving to all, loves children, visits the elderly, keeps in touch with family wherever they are, and a good christian man that was me. I guess I had one fault that too many people have, as much compassion as I have always had, it wasn't enough. Stress and muscle tension stress helped create hyperthyroidism/graves disease and I went way down hill from there!!! I never thought that I was too strong for anything to change me or ruin me, but I never really new how your health can affect your mind, physical is one thing, but mental? I NEVER new! My health problems created anxiety/tmj/ocd. So here I am falling apart from where I thought that I was closest to the Lord and a very strong christian man. Many hardships came my way in my fall from... I don't know... grace. I didn't judge others to my expectations, but I was always way too judgemental on myself and way too critical. A good and clear/clean conscience is a wonderful thing and so is the voice that states hey that it is wrong, don't do that or say you're sorry. But I had to be perfect in every way! I thank the Lord that He was ALWAYS with me and NEVER left me! So not enough compassion I said? Well I finally know now how people fall apart and either stray or fail in some way. My fault has turned into a much stronger part of me now that I have walked a mile (more like a hunderd) in anothers shoe. Temptations came my way, humility, physical problems and my mind going bonkers. My overactive thyroid had my mind racing, heart racing, tremers, graves had my eyes bulged out, too dry, then teary, and then there is the side affects from the meds along with the diseases. Steriods for my eyes created water weight all over, agitation, and more. I will not bore you with the 200 pages that I can write about all the sleep I never got for 6yrs, no one understanding because you can usually look pretty normal, hide it fairly well and the doctors miss diagnosing me and prolonging my illness. Oh also not getting regulated for like...ever up and down up and down for just too aweful long. Tapazol could not slow down my thyroid, with either specialist including the good one who could speak english (when I finally got him), so I had to take a radioactive iodine pill and then the doctor had to adjust my synthroid once I went underactive. A male, and a male my age doesn't fall into the catagory of getting this disease too often. And so many people can get regulated pretty quick, it's so common yet many times miss diagnosed. And when you finally get a specialist, he can't even speek english. And there is the whole insurance thing, which doctor takes which insurance, work changes there insurance policy, and certain meds don't get prescribed because of the insurance company. So enough with that, I now have much more empathy for others because I now have walked in their shoes. I have noticed that even if you don't have the same problem or disease as others, if you've walked even a 1/2 mile with a messed up head many of us understand eachother. I have been in this program for a short while, starting session 5 on monday and I have shared my experience with others. Others online here, and neighbors and strangers. It's actually helping them too just by helping them replace negative thoughts with positive thoughts and you never know who really is hurting, many times it's the ones you could never imagine! I believe wrong is wrong and that there is a certain punishment that fits the crime. For every action there is a reaction, so we can't go on in life thinking that nothing really matters and anything/everything is ok. But now I have finally learned what God was trying to teach me, EMPATHY, everybody needs it! God Bless!!