he read my journal, I'm a little scared of him

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Hello everyone- thank you so very much for the thoughtful responses. I have many things to ponder in my heart but I believe my intuition is correct and I need to carefully consider taking the difficult steps. Tonight I saw him in the parking lot of the yoga studio where he knew I was practicing; it was a bit creepy. These are the types of things that make me uneasy, especially since there is no reason for him not to trust me. I am examining myself also- I am extremely volatile with this anxiety and panic disorder and may be contributing to his behavior, or perhaps it is just in his nature and profession to know who is where and what is happening at all times. I do not believe he is violent, but he is angry and he might not be the right man for me also for additional reasons I have not mentioned... at any rate, I cannot begin to thank you all enough for these words of insight, encouragement, and warning. I have taken heed and have scheduled an appointment with my therapist as well as some time alone to sort it out in my mind. It's amazing how convoluted and tangled things get when mixed up with anxiety. It's a mixed and rocky journey. Thank you for hopping on with me briefly and sharing wise perspective. It is not fun to be at work all day on guard then to come home and feel like a prisoner in my own home, hoping he's not there, etc. Home should be where you come home to relax and unwind. Thank you again, I am blessed by your presence here and I hope to bless in turn. All best, and peace and blessings on your challenges/ journey