School and a wedding!!

[Brandi Menifee]

Ok so, I am about to start school again this semester starting nxt week! This will be my 5th time in college since 2003! I really hope and pray to stay in and finish this round! I feel like it is my only answer to stay away from going and having to work in another factory where I was very unhappy with! The ppl are heartless, all they do is gossip, u can't even trust ur own bosses, cuz they show way too much favortism, lately it seems like the biggest rate in lay offs, and u have to do the same thing day in and day out! I want to graduate already, and start my career as a radiologist, and maybe later a pediatric nurse. I get confused though on what I am supposed to do with my life career wise bcuz I haven't been successful in graduating yet! I sometimes feel that maybe god is telling me, no ur not supposed to work in a hospital, but I know he doesn't want me to keep being financially challenged, and stay with dead end jobs! Maybe it's just my negative thinking again. I need the Lord to push me to push myself! I really want to help ppl in the medical field, but everytime I attempt school, something always happens that I drop out, or have had to drop out!

Also, going to school full time, and planning a wedding! Of course I am more excited about planning my wedding verses going back to school. Financially since I lost my job back in July, it has been a struggle, not knowing if I am going to be able to have the wedding that I want. I just keep planning it anyway, and pray about it! We're gonna be married regardless by the will of god! I still am getting unemployment, but that will probably be over soon. I may just have to get a part time job. I'm just dreading the job that I may have to get! Anyway, I just hope everything falls into place, and I stayed focused on what God wants me to do!