I want to die

ariadenise · Post by **ariadenise** » Mon Jun 29, 2009 10:29 am

My anxiety attacks are sooo extreme that i hit myself i get so angry, i cry and scream and hit myself and think about takeing knifes and scared one day its going to be knifes insted of fists. I just feel like i want to stab eveyrone or punch sonmeone. I also feel like i can take a drill and then cut out my brain wish i could get a new one........mad and depressed i need a new brain

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 29, 2009 10:46 am

dont think that way. i used to be like that just take deep breaths and say to your self everything is going to be ok. say im fine there is nothing to worry about. take those thoughts out of your head and place them with different words. like i wanna hit myself you can change that to i wanna eat an apple. you can change your thoughts you are in the drivers seat. say to yourself SO WHAT i am OK.

GOD BLESS

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 29, 2009 12:30 pm

im sorry you feel this way. YOUre not alone. Try to relax ...breathe. Have you thought about seeking some help?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 29, 2009 5:21 pm

Hi Ariadenise,

Just wanted to second (or, more accurately, third) what JP and Fixme have said: you are absolutely not alone in your feelings. Please take heart knowing that other people understand what you're going through! A lot of times it can be very tempting to distract yourself from internal, emotional pain by inflicting physical pain on yourself, but that will not solve the problem. Remember that you are a valuable human being, and you have something wonderful to contribute to the world, even if you're having a hard time recognizing what that might be. You will get through this. Everyone on these boards is here to support one another, so you've come to a good place! PLEASE take care of yourself. You deserve it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jun 29, 2009 8:36 pm

I feel the way a lot of these users do. I know what you mean . I have no support system they wont even try . I wouldnt exactly replace the i want to hit myself with I want to eat an apple that can cause overeating which isnt good for anyone in any health state. There is nothing wrong with venting anger go somewhere where you are alone and scream really loudly. Make sure it is somewhere like a big open prairie. You can do this inside your car too . It helps a lot. Try screaming into a pillow

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jun 30, 2009 2:24 am

Hi,
So sorry to hear that you are going through such horrible experiences. Please don't hurt yourself - you are a beautiful being, as we all are - I was abused as a child and there were many times that I wanted to hurt myself. I'm much better now - I saw a therapist for a while to get help with wanting to hurt myself so.
Please take care of yourself, and try to love yourself, because you deserve love and peace.
Gerri L

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 01, 2009 2:37 am

, i cry and scream and hit myself and think about takeing knifes and scared one day its going to be knifes insted of fists. I just feel like i want to stab eveyrone or punch sonmeone. I also feel like i can take a drill and then cut out my brain wish i could get a new one........mad and depressed i need a new brain

aria think positive...positive...get out when you feel like that DISTRACT YOURSELF!! PLEASE I've BEEN THERE and its hard...miserably hard... but come on please don't think of death

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jul 04, 2009 12:22 pm

I cant' just get out of the house...i get more anxiety driving.... and its hard to think positive...when im in my anxiety attacks or deep depressed modeeee...I'm not myself...its like my whole mind takes over and i cant control it.....at that time i cant just think ill go eat an apple or just think itlls be ok because im screaming and hitting and all thats going trhough is i might as well die...noone needs me...i mean.....i hope that makes sense...when its happeningmy mind forgets all the things peopel tell me to do its like it snaps it goes crazy for however long those attacks last

angel413 · Post by **angel413** » Sat Jul 04, 2009 1:30 pm

I get overwhelmed and get very depressed when I feel like I am drowning in my circumstances. So I was taught to make a list of the things I can control and then a seperate list of things for later. and then make my "can control" list from the easiest to the least easy and start there. I also have a mental check list
1. did I sleep at least 6 hrs straight thru?
2. Am I PMSing?
3. am I eating healthy foods and getting my water intake?
4. Did I take a shower and brush my teeth and care for my grooming needs?
5. Am I staying away from negative hateful people who are downers about everything?
6 am I surrouding myself with LOTS OF LAUGHTER and HOPE? You gotta watch Jerry Lewis' Disorderly Orderly by the way...
I know it 's hard and exhausting and we'd be millionaires if we could get paid for all the mental drama we put ourselves thru..haha
I am learning to live in the moment and that is really helping me alot. I know you can make it thru this just by the fact you reached out and shared.
I feel your pain and you moved me to write and share. Thank You soo much!
take care

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jul 04, 2009 5:28 pm

the thing is i can never find anyone that isnt negative....theres like a sign on me saying pick on this chick or be mean to me...i dont know why coworkers wise friend wise they all turn against me...call me stupid so really i have no friends i have my hubby my brother which my brother cant even make it to me cuz he dont have a car...and it makes me mad when i talk to him im always freakin in an attack...and i have one friend that lives in california so i really dont get to speak to her much...and thats it...i try to meet new people but they are all backstabbing two faced...think im weird. or think its fun to call me stupid , retarded, lazy etc...and i dont do crap to them ihelp them

thats all i do and be nice to them and thats what i get