Panicking around Men

[Spazzz]

Hey guys! I really need help with this. I am a 20 year old female and growing up my dad had a horrible temper. Even though it only happened a few times in my life, when I was little he would yell at me so loud that it would scare me so badly I would be shaking and sometimes even pee in my pants. That always instilled fear in me that he would randomly become angry. So now in relationships with boys if I think for the slightest second that he could be angry with me I immediately start panicking. I went through the program about 3 years ago. My panicking has gotten SO much better! I went from panicking 3 times a day to once every two weeks. However it is still there and bothersome. Part of this I think is because I have not talked or had closure with my father on how his temper has effected me. I am scared that I will never be in a relationship in the future without panicking in it. I was wondering if anyone out there has a similar situation where they are afraid of their significant other and could tell me how they are dealing with it or overcome it. I want to be married and have kids someday but I don't want to have panic attacks be apart of the relationship. Please give me hope that I will be in future relationships without panicking. Some people tell me if I find the right man, it won't be a problem. I want to give all my problems up to God and let him handle it. Please give me hope! I need to know that this is possible. Thanks!