Fears...what do I believe

[acceptance]

Im really struggling with trust of myself and what I think I believe. When I first did this program years ago I felt so much growth and change ,but now I dont sense any change and not sure why. It seemed so fresh and true and now it seems like it did not work because Im still struggling with new anxiety.I keep telling myself that I can change and will but I dont believe it. I have been through a lot of loss the last couple years and have had some very confusing friendships with people. My husband and myself are very involved in our church in leadership and have become friends with some pastors. I felt very solid in my convictions or a long time but after being friends with him( he is very intimidating) I now very anxious as to what I can and do think of truth. I know this sounds confusing but my anxiety level is over the top. Everytime I try to use my discernment or belief system I get sooo anxious. Questioning everything and likeI said I cant find the proper thoughts to combat all the negative thoughts. Im not sure at all now to get back to what I did believe or how to get a new belief system. Wow i read this an get soo scared . Any input would be great. Thanks!

[tina martin]

I've been around this topic a number of times. It can be a rough ride. Religion and politics, even meds or no meds, are interesting topics, to be sure, but not easy to navigate. Feelings can be potent.

The program here (re anxiety) is not necessarily a cure-all for all time. Sometimes it requires renewed attention. If it helped you in the past maybe you just need a refresher. Try it again. Wishing you the best.

[acceptance]

Thank you so much, I will be working on it again

[tina martin]

You're very welcome. Just want to add that your name has become a goal in my evolution toward health and well being. I like to make up acronyms for myself. Here is my latest: PACT

P peace
A acceptance
C calm
T truth

[KAMO]

You're very welcome. Just want to add that your name has become a goal in my evolution toward health and well being. I like to make up acronyms for myself. Here is my latest: PACT

P peace
A acceptance
C calm
T truth

Hey Tina, I love PACT. I'm going to have to remember that one for myself, now if I can just follow it maybe my anxiety will ease off somewhat.

[okxen]

It gets really tuff, and i hope i dont have to do the program again, but i am sure that you are more than capable of beating this condition. You did it once why not again?? Remember rome was not built in a day, i know believeing me reorganized thought was hard at first but after doing it enough i did believe it because i was telling myself the thruth. I bet your an awesome person thats been through a lot. KEEP PUSHIINGGG!!! You got this. Walk through the long dark tunnel to get to the light at the endd!!!

[tina martin]

Glad you like my little invention, KAMO. So I'll expand a bit: Peace and Calm are often the mantras when I meditate and say the words to breathe in and out. Acceptance and Truth are two big goals I strive for. I have a few other acronyms. The nice part is anyone can make up their own.

And, yes, pushing is crucial. We must always gather our energies to resist what seeks to keep us down. It takes drive, determination, work, resistance; and, as you say, pushing.