Does anyone else fake it....

Leopolda · Post by **Leopolda** » Thu Feb 19, 2009 8:44 am

I am at work and have to put on a happy face and fake it. No one at work would every suspect that I have this disorder. I always laugh, smile and when someone asks how I am doing I always say "good." It is draining though. I have not told any family members that I got depression and anxiety back after ten years being free from it. My family, god love them, will be constantly driving me crazy and telling me that I have a wonderful life, husband, children, job, etc. that I should not feel this way. I have not told my husband because he has not worked since August of 2008 and I do not want to burden him with anymore stress than he has. So basically I am dealing with this all by myself. It is really hard to wake up in the morning and face another day of dealing with the anxiety, and the tingling and burning sensation and the fear that something bad is going to happen. I am on session eight now. I pray everyday that this program will work. Thanks for listening....Leopolda

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 19, 2009 8:49 am

Boy do I know about faking it!LOL My job requires me to fake it, and yes it can get very draining. I'm in the same boat you are. No one at work would probably ever suspect I go through the things that I do. Not to mention I am in a postion of authority over everyone so I REALLY have to fake it sometimes and I know it stinks! I understand how you feel in regards to your family as well. Mine does the same thing. I always regret telling them anything about my anxiety.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 19, 2009 11:38 am

I understand your pain!! I often feel like I smile to make others happy when really I could probably just cry. I am only on session three right now but I can honestly say I'm starting to feel better. There's hope just keep reminding yourself that you are a strong person, you wouldn't be in this program if you weren't, so keep up the hard work! Happiness will find you again, all you have to do is keep the faith!

Best Wishes

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 19, 2009 1:59 pm

Oh yes I can relate. But something that makes me feel a little better is that most people fake it at work. Not everyone thinks someone stupid joke is funny or the coworkers picture is cute. You have to smile. Just laugh about it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 20, 2009 4:33 am

Thank you for replying to my post. It really helps to hear what others have to say. I am taking one day at a time and hopefully I will rid myself of this disorder. I feel like I am just floating through life right now.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 20, 2009 8:48 am

When do we start getting our oscars. ha-ha!
Sometimes on the way home I can just feel how tired my cheeks are from smiling all day,After another award winning preformance.