Hi, I am 33 weeks pregnant, just go married on Dec 28th and am so anxiety ridden this past week its crazy! I feel as if i am not living in my present and constantly thinking of the past, the future etc. I sometimes feel as if i am not even living in reality! I am excited about the baby but so nervous at the same time. I have a 6 yr old daughter and her dad and i split up a yr after she was born because he was basically a jerk and very selfish. Now i am nervous about my husband and i divorcing after the baby or him not living up to my expectations etc.
To give a little history on us, thats really all there is is a little! lol we met in April, totally had that love at first sight thing going on, inseperable from the moment we met, found out we were pregnant only 3 months into it, got married 8 months into it and now expecting in a month and a half. That's alot huh?
The thing is is do love him so much, he is my very best friend, a great step dad to my daughter, works his ass off (thats another thing he works 2nd shift and we only see each other once a week:(), he is so excited for our little boy....BUT! He is 8 yrs younger than me, very inexperienced with responsibility and i am nervous this will end up like it did with my daughters dad.
I am not used to being happy,content and drama free. i am always over analyzing almost as if i want there to be a problem. Things in my life are so good and i truely do not know how to live in the present without worrying something is going to go wrong. Or! When i do realize how awesome things are i begin to have scary thoughts about hurting people because that has always been my major anxiety problem and my brain goes to that! I feel like i am rambling... Does anyone have any advice or feedback? Anything would be good! thanks