General comments\Inquiries about anxiety

penu · Post by **penu** » Thu Jun 26, 2008 5:47 pm

HI everyone,

Words can never express how I feel today however,let me give it a try.

I wrote in quite sometime ago in regards to my fear of flying,which is basically the reason for purchasing the program. Although I do tavel it has never been by plane. I have pretty much been successfull in recovering from anxiety and severe panic attacks for about 8 to 9 years now. For so many years I have dreamed of getting over this fear,it has kept me from so many opportunites. I can't even count the times I played it out in my mind, visualizing myself getting on a plane and then " freaking out". In my dreams or when I played it out in my head It ended the same way-I couldn't get on the plane.

Over a week ago I got on that plane,I did it!!!!! I was shaking,pacing,my mouth went dry,I got dizzy,my heart pounded, and just before I borded the plane I heard that voice in my head say " you can't do it ", I calmly answered " yes I can." I sat in my seat and again I heard the voice say " get up ang go befor they shut the door " I said " no, I have to do this." Suddenly when the plane took off the voice left,15 years it lived there,15 years it appeared in my dreams,and 15 years it told me I could never fly.

I have always believed when one small positive thing happens you have got to hold onto it. It will sustain you till the next positive thing comes along. MOM of 6, Angla, Michelle4444, and Kristen I don't know any of you however, you were that first positive thing I hung onto when you answered my post and I thank you so so much.

"Come to the edge" he said.
"I can't, I'm afraid."
"Come to the edge he said, take my hand."
I took his hand, he pushed me and I flew.

All my thanks,
Penu

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jun 29, 2008 12:33 pm

Way to go!!!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jun 29, 2008 12:42 pm

Well, I'm never sure how to work these pages, but I'll try. I'm having trouble getting calm enough to listen to the Relaxation tape. The best I can do right now is to sit up and leave the TV on low and then listen to the tape. Probably not optimal, but I hope it will get easier. Any other suggestions would be appreciated.

Eek · Post by **Eek** » Sun Jun 29, 2008 12:44 pm

Penu
I am so very happy for you. You did it!!!!!
I'm sure you feel fantastic. As you should.
Your Friend
Angla

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jun 29, 2008 12:50 pm

beingpeace,
However you need to do it is just fine. The main thing is you are trying and that is wonderful. Do it how you need to do it. If you need to listen to it just a little and stop, do that, and then you can move on. Baby steps is what we have to do and then one day we will be suprized by all the wonderful things we are able to do. If you need anymore help there are so many here that are kind caring friends that will do all they can to help. I wish you the very best on your journey to recovery. Hang in there and it will get easier.
Your Friend
Angla

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jun 29, 2008 1:26 pm

Thank you Angela.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jun 29, 2008 1:42 pm

Penu,
When I was small and had not yet learned to swim, I learned much in the same way - as the poem at the end of you Post says...
My Father told my sis to push me into the deep, clear, cold water! (I didn't have my life jacket on when on the dock - That was a Rule!)
Before this happened, he asked me why I wasn't wearing my PFD? I replied "Your here, Dad, You will save Me!" Then it happened - SPLASH!
I struggled and yelled - Come help Me! He said No; It has come time that you Learned to swim...
So, Start dog paddling!
I did, and I have been swimming ever since. I was so afraid but he allowed me the opportunity to learn to swim, by Myself. And I thank him, to this day, for that opportunity!
Penu, Congrats on your new success, I'm sure it will be the beginning of Many Opportunities to Beat these Dragons that trouble us. Keep up the good Work. Seadog.