I too, had the responsibilities at a young age, when my Mother became ill. I was so young and fearful of "getting" her illness(as I stated earlier, she was diagnosed with Paranoia/Schizophrenia) Things for me, went south after that. I do believe that is why I left home at such a young age. I just wanted to get out of that nightmare. Unfortunately, just to enter another one! (that is explained in my very first post, which I shared with you.
my friend, you have gone through ALOT in your life, and "sensitive" people,as ourselves can be affected by everything going on around us. It's scary and difficult, however, what we need to REALLY understand is that it ISN'T necessarily a BAD thing. We are BLESSED with humility, decernment, giving, kind heartedness, etc. etc. etc. Read about "fruits of the spirit" and give yourself a pat on the back. I can GUARRANTY , that you will find quite a few of those qualities in YOU!!! It's the "type" of personality we possess. However, as for are fears and worry, we HAVE to change our "thinking habits". Satan KNOWS that we are TRULEY good people And we are seeking Gods own heart,therefore, he will use our weaknesses(anxiety, worry, fear) to confuse and distort the TRUTH. And the TRUTH is "God is NOT The author of fear and confusion, but of Love and peace"."We are more than conquerors", NOW We NEED to claim that TRUTH and apply it to our lives. The question is, HOW do we do that, right???? Well, I'm finding out that we need to work on our perspective. In is written in Phillipians 4:6-9 "Do not be anxious about ANYTHING, but by prayer and petition, with THANKSGIVING present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your "MINDS" in Christ."
my friend, here is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING YOU WILL EVER READ,pertaining to anxiety and fear. This is the most useful tool for me and this is what made the difference in my life. I read.."whatsoever is true,whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me-put it into practice. and the God of peace will be with you" NIV`
PRAY about this scripture, read it over and over and over. I found that when this scripture REALLY became REAL to me and I TRULY understood the power in these words, that's when everything started changing for me. I became stronger, more focused and it drew me closer to my heavenly Father. I am finding out that you CAN go about your day "thinking on these things" and when all you can do is think about God and his promises(peace that passes all understanding) that's when your mind and spirit is renewed. AMEN also, "pray without ceasing"..I'm learning that this is also possible. Praying doesn't necessarily mean, down on your knees before God, it simply means in conversation with God(that's my perception) I can be in conversation with him, all day, everyday. Sure, things come up, but I can continuously keep him active in every part of my day! So, there it is my friend This is how I get through my day with anxiety, stress, etc. I'm focusing on prayer and scripture. I'm NOT saying that it is easy, it takes practice!!!! I have my rough days, but when I go to bed each night, I have to thank God for the strength he's given me through the day and for the promises he's made me that I HANG on to everyday..HE is TRULEY the one who sustains me. The more you put these things into practice, the stronger you will be. Remember, the bible also tells us how to prepare for battle(you know this is a spiritual battle you are going through) Eph 6: 10-18 "Putting on Godly Armor"... do you see the correlation?? it says "take the helmet(to protect our mind) of salvation and the sword(the word of God) of the spirit. The MIND needs the WORD to function properly. Interesting observation isn't it????
anyways, I hope this helps you. Please know that I am praying for you . You've been blessed with the spirit of GOD!! How fortunate you ARE!!! You were predestined to walk this earth and you have a PURPOSE!!! "as you were being formed in your mothers womb"...You ARE a CONQUEROR, you CAN DO THIS!!!!!
Blessings, and have a wonderful day
your friend,
Robin
As I wrote these words of encouragement today, I was filled with excitement and hope! I know I'm heading in the right direction and I'm beginning to realize that when I can thank God for anxiety, that is when anxiety ceases. Anxiety brought me back to God!!!!! Although fear and confusion is NOT OF GOD, it was when I am at my lowest point that I draw near to him and he lifted me up again. I'm doing it one day at a time and praise God that is all he is expecting me to do
Good day everyone and God Bless
) I used to become fearful at night just anticipating another one. They have become fewer and far between, as I've become more consistant in my nightly prayers. I focus more on thanking God for my day and all the blessings in my life. And then before I even get out of bed, I thank God for a wonderful new day, again thanking him for all the blessings in my life. I'm praying for you!!!